Gone-and-Back
Rising Star
So during the last full moon, me and the wife decided to hold a ceremony with some friends for the full moon. Our original intent was to do so sober, and ask for protection for one of our friends who was going to join us (some girl he knew was trying to curse him). So we went about our preperation, cleansed the house with sage, and burned sweet grass to promote positive energy and spirits to join us. We got our alter ready and we're waiting for our friends to arrive before closing the salt circle for protection, and I remembered I had 0.3g of some penis envy mushrooms left over, so I decided this would be a good time for such a small dose.
As everyone arrived I finished up my usual tea preperation, and sat down in the circle with everyone. We closed the circle, and I drank my tea. I didn't expect the intensity that was to follow.
During the beginning we smudged ourselves, and I smudged my tea as well while asking for guidance from the mushroom spirit. We went about the ceremony, and after 20 minutes I was really feeling the effects come on. Much quicker and stronger then I thought.
As it intensified, I listened to what everyone was saying while staring into the flickering candle flames and shadows that were cast across the table. They were dancing to our words as if they were alive. I joined in the ceremonial versus that were being said, and we all took each other's hands in an attempt to increase each of our connections spiritually and physically for the protection spell.
At this time, there was a huge surge of energy that swept through the room. I could feel everyone's energy pulsing through me and mixing with my own. It was very pleasant and had a strong warming feeling to it. I couldn't help but smile at everyone as I felt connected to them at such a deep personal level. This is when stuff became somewhat of a blur, as I seemed to enter a trance.
During this trance I had no connection to other living things. I didn't see my wife or friends, nor feel their presence anymore. However, I did feel a strong protecting energy around me, and was overcome with a strong scent that I had only smelled before as my great aunts perfume. She passed away in '11 from melanoma, and we did not end on a great note. Along with all of this I felt forgiveness. Forgiveness for the way I treated her at the end, and forgiveness for the faults that I had let come between us. It brought tears to my eyes. I swear I could feel her loving embrace once again. I should also mention that I was wearing a necklace that contained some of her ashes in an attempt to communicate that night.
As this was starting to fade I was brought back to the ceremony by my wife tapping me on the shoulder to tell me we all had to stand and recite and verse now. As I did those feelings faded, but not completely. I was also surprised to see how much time had passed, as the candles were burning much further down then I had last realized before my trance.
We did the verse, shared the communal glass of wine, and finished up the ceremony. As it ended, we went outside for a smoke and to discuss our feelings. The sky was completely clear, and the moon had a huge, pulsating corona around it. Even though I was the only one tripping, I was not the only person who saw this. It was a beautiful end to a wonderful experience.
After returning inside, we smoked a little cannabis as the mushrooms started to subside. We stayed up and talked for a while before everyone went to sleep.
This was truly one of the most magical experiences I have had, and definitely the most profound. I healed a lot that night, and can say that I don't struggle with the loss of my great aunt anymore. I know she is happy with me and forgives me. She will always be there to watch over me and my family, and I am forever grateful to have had her in my life.
As everyone arrived I finished up my usual tea preperation, and sat down in the circle with everyone. We closed the circle, and I drank my tea. I didn't expect the intensity that was to follow.
During the beginning we smudged ourselves, and I smudged my tea as well while asking for guidance from the mushroom spirit. We went about the ceremony, and after 20 minutes I was really feeling the effects come on. Much quicker and stronger then I thought.
As it intensified, I listened to what everyone was saying while staring into the flickering candle flames and shadows that were cast across the table. They were dancing to our words as if they were alive. I joined in the ceremonial versus that were being said, and we all took each other's hands in an attempt to increase each of our connections spiritually and physically for the protection spell.
At this time, there was a huge surge of energy that swept through the room. I could feel everyone's energy pulsing through me and mixing with my own. It was very pleasant and had a strong warming feeling to it. I couldn't help but smile at everyone as I felt connected to them at such a deep personal level. This is when stuff became somewhat of a blur, as I seemed to enter a trance.
During this trance I had no connection to other living things. I didn't see my wife or friends, nor feel their presence anymore. However, I did feel a strong protecting energy around me, and was overcome with a strong scent that I had only smelled before as my great aunts perfume. She passed away in '11 from melanoma, and we did not end on a great note. Along with all of this I felt forgiveness. Forgiveness for the way I treated her at the end, and forgiveness for the faults that I had let come between us. It brought tears to my eyes. I swear I could feel her loving embrace once again. I should also mention that I was wearing a necklace that contained some of her ashes in an attempt to communicate that night.
As this was starting to fade I was brought back to the ceremony by my wife tapping me on the shoulder to tell me we all had to stand and recite and verse now. As I did those feelings faded, but not completely. I was also surprised to see how much time had passed, as the candles were burning much further down then I had last realized before my trance.
We did the verse, shared the communal glass of wine, and finished up the ceremony. As it ended, we went outside for a smoke and to discuss our feelings. The sky was completely clear, and the moon had a huge, pulsating corona around it. Even though I was the only one tripping, I was not the only person who saw this. It was a beautiful end to a wonderful experience.
After returning inside, we smoked a little cannabis as the mushrooms started to subside. We stayed up and talked for a while before everyone went to sleep.
This was truly one of the most magical experiences I have had, and definitely the most profound. I healed a lot that night, and can say that I don't struggle with the loss of my great aunt anymore. I know she is happy with me and forgives me. She will always be there to watch over me and my family, and I am forever grateful to have had her in my life.
