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so after a couple of days to think over and somewhat recover after her first hit of dmt, swim is finally ready to share her experience... her first time was with her lil sis, at home in the living room.. they sat facing eachother in the buddha position forming a circle with their bodies and sat for a couple minutes meditating to calm their nerves first... which were definitely in need of calming.. afterwards they picked up their pipes, looked at eachother, lit their torch lighters and kept the holes on their oilers covered until they had built up all the smoke in the chamber and then took one massive hit of 100 mg of dmt.. swim took that hit and held it in, never exhaling.. with her eyes still open after only a few seconds she then saw the most beautiful colorful patterns run up the pipe and through it up into her brain and then all the sudden she was ripped from her body, she no longer was, nothing any longer was, images seemed to spatter so quickly through her mind, seemingly reaching new levels until she reached an absolute level of nothing but the brightest neon colors in all sorts of strange shapes and fashions.. she mainly remembers a lot of pink and blue and white.. it was beautiful.. swim was no longer alive.. in the third dimension anyway.. she had no flesh body.. she simple was.. everything and everything.. all the sudden she was taken somewhere else... she felt herself as a burning flame of energy now.. so powerful.. there was other figures.. their exact looks escape swims mind.. but their was laughing and taunting and question of who's turn was it gonna be.. who was gonna step up to save the earth.. and swim gladly jumped forth and flew out and seemed to enter yet another area.. one she likes to think of as "the playground".. where it seemed imminent the battle was going to begin! forces seemed to be boomerang-ing all around.. like sonic booms.. and swim was zooming throughing beams of flaming energy about.. it was all shades of green and purple and white.. beautiful.. then swim heard some strange female moaning.. and then all the sudden started to see a monstrosity forming.. which as it continued to take shape.. was turning into her sister and returning her to a closer level of conciousness.. she was asking swim if she was ok?... swim felt GREAT!.. but very shaky.. shaken to her very core... she shook her head to clear it a bit.. but as swim started to see her sister more clearly.. she saw her eyes very large and she could see her sis energy force around her and she looked like a cat! images of ancient egypt, fighting with strange weapons were fleeting through swims mind.. at this point they were not in their living room... but looking all around the seemed to be in some of space ship.. somewhat dark.. with outer space and the earth outside! and the sudden so many revelations started to come to mind.. the oneness.. everything is everything.. everything MEANS something.. the lies and stupidity of everything shallow in the earth seemed to become completely clear.. then she was in some white space.. the thoughts i am... and then a positive feeling and some hmmmmm sound... the thoughts of everyday positive relationships in which swim takes place came to mind... ones in which swim and others give to eachother (just everyday like work type relationships or friendships) and therefor help the flow.. positivity helps, energizes the flows... the vibrations... they were now back in the house.. swim felt a calling.. like she was needed elsewhere.. for a greater purpose which seemed so much more exciting than being on this earth! she felt like she never wanted to go back to her stupid job like she wanted to go to outerspace! she felt too big for her body like she was going to explode out of her skin.. she felt higher than ever in her life but soooo good! her sister felt the same way.. she wanted to leave too.. they looked at eachother and saw the lines and vibrations of the matrix running through everything... her sis would run her hands through her hair and it was changing colors... the floor and everything was fluid.. there was the most beautiful designs and patterns running in lines all over EVERYTHING!! swim couldnt help but stare... they were ready and willing to go right then.. but yet they did not.. why?? because it was not their time of course.. swim has seen that dmt gives you a glimpse of the end of your time.. but the most beautiful thing about it is that you come back... because afterall... she knows how to go again :) everything lasted about 30 min.. she feels so changed.. the understanding of the oneness has settled in more and it is so profound... life doesnt seem the same.. it feels like it takes forever to go through the motions... one freaky thing swim would like to mention.. swims sis lighter malfunctioned a bit.. so it took a little longer for her to take her hit.. and she exhaled.. she told swim that when she first came to consciousness and swim still wasnt, she turned swims body over and swims eyes were open, but they were only a pale yellow.. there was no black in them...

the next night they did it again... after such a large amount the first time they decided to try a lesser amount the second.. only about 50 mg.. they once again sat in the buddha position and meditated beforehand.. once again swim took the hit in whole and did not exhale.. they flew to hyperspace once more.. this time seemingly in some place of ooze... swim felt as if smothered in the ooze.. and like it was everywhere.. there was these gulping, gagging regurgitating noises and the colors were orange and green and white.. slowly the room started to take shape again.. was she all wet? she was touching herself trying to figure out... what was this thing in her hand/? oh... a lighter... she couldnt speak yet... she could see some type of crazy field of energy around the tv and dj equipment in the living room... slowly again she could speak... and her and her sister went over what they experienced... where they went they were together... they both heard the sounds and saw the same colors! but both did not experience the level of the night before... they were not again catapulted into outer space.. and were therefor disappointed... swim feels she liked that much better... and that had lasted much longer.. this only lasted about 10-15 min for it to go away... swim loved the high dose of 100 mg but understands that it is not for everyone.. she urges that this high dosage definitely has given her a constant desire to be in hyperspace.. swim is struggling to focus as she sees the tasks at hand as meager but then keeps reminding herself of what she was afterall taught in her trip.. EVERYTHING MATTERS!! every little thing builds upon every other little thing and EVERYTHING MATTERS! unfortunately these experiences have managed to further isolate her from others as she knows most people cannot concieve of or understand nor do they want to the teachings dmt has to offer... she still feels very uncomfortable in her skin.. her eyes sometimes shake and for moments she sees things all fluid again .. she remains shaken to the core but wants more.. she will continue to experiment with dosages and keep posting.. any comments or insights anyone has are greatly welcomed
 
yeah that's quite a dose, I would be curious to know how you pulled that off...and if you didn't burn any of it...and whether your spice was pure or orange and waxy..
either way, welcome. epic report+
 
the spice was slightly yellow not waxy and swim used a freebase pipe, covered the holes and used a serious flame torch for a few seconds and then began to inhale with the flame still under the glass and kept the flame on it until swim fully inhaled.. all that was left behind was a small bit of black residue on the glass... would that residue contain hits still? a little bit right?
 
Yeah, if you were using a vape and there's not crystals all over the glass then you probably got most of it.

100mg in 1 hit is not unheard of, just unusual, and almost always usually painful (esp with a vaporizer).

Anyways, welcome and thanks for writing up the report!
 
felinefatale said:
so after a couple of days to think over and somewhat recover after her first hit of dmt, swim is finally ready to share her experience... her first time was with her lil sis, at home in the living room.. they sat facing eachother in the buddha position forming a circle with their bodies and sat for a couple minutes meditating to calm their nerves first... which were definitely in need of calming.. afterwards they picked up their pipes, looked at eachother, lit their torch lighters and kept the holes on their oilers covered until they had built up all the smoke in the chamber and then took one massive hit of 100 mg of dmt.. swim took that hit and held it in, never exhaling.. with her eyes still open after only a few seconds she then saw the most beautiful colorful patterns run up the pipe and through it up into her brain and then all the sudden she was ripped from her body, she no longer was, nothing any longer was, images seemed to spatter so quickly through her mind, seemingly reaching new levels until she reached an absolute level of nothing but the brightest neon colors in all sorts of strange shapes and fashions.. she mainly remembers a lot of pink and blue and white.. it was beautiful.. swim was no longer alive.. in the third dimension anyway.. she had no flesh body.. she simple was.. everything and everything.. all the sudden she was taken somewhere else... she felt herself as a burning flame of energy now.. so powerful.. there was other figures.. their exact looks escape swims mind.. but their was laughing and taunting and question of who's turn was it gonna be.. who was gonna step up to save the earth.. and swim gladly jumped forth and flew out and seemed to enter yet another area.. one she likes to think of as "the playground".. where it seemed imminent the battle was going to begin! forces seemed to be boomerang-ing all around.. like sonic booms.. and swim was zooming throughing beams of flaming energy about.. it was all shades of green and purple and white.. beautiful.. then swim heard some strange female moaning.. and then all the sudden started to see a monstrosity forming.. which as it continued to take shape.. was turning into her sister and returning her to a closer level of conciousness.. she was asking swim if she was ok?... swim felt GREAT!.. but very shaky.. shaken to her very core... she shook her head to clear it a bit.. but as swim started to see her sister more clearly.. she saw her eyes very large and she could see her sis energy force around her and she looked like a cat! images of ancient egypt, fighting with strange weapons were fleeting through swims mind.. at this point they were not in their living room... but looking all around the seemed to be in some of space ship.. somewhat dark.. with outer space and the earth outside! and the sudden so many revelations started to come to mind.. the oneness.. everything is everything.. everything MEANS something.. the lies and stupidity of everything shallow in the earth seemed to become completely clear.. then she was in some white space.. the thoughts i am... and then a positive feeling and some hmmmmm sound... the thoughts of everyday positive relationships in which swim takes place came to mind... ones in which swim and others give to eachother (just everyday like work type relationships or friendships) and therefor help the flow.. positivity helps, energizes the flows... the vibrations... they were now back in the house.. swim felt a calling.. like she was needed elsewhere.. for a greater purpose which seemed so much more exciting than being on this earth! she felt like she never wanted to go back to her stupid job like she wanted to go to outerspace! she felt too big for her body like she was going to explode out of her skin.. she felt higher than ever in her life but soooo good! her sister felt the same way.. she wanted to leave too.. they looked at eachother and saw the lines and vibrations of the matrix running through everything... her sis would run her hands through her hair and it was changing colors... the floor and everything was fluid.. there was the most beautiful designs and patterns running in lines all over EVERYTHING!! swim couldnt help but stare... they were ready and willing to go right then.. but yet they did not.. why?? because it was not their time of course.. swim has seen that dmt gives you a glimpse of the end of your time.. but the most beautiful thing about it is that you come back... because afterall... she knows how to go again :) everything lasted about 30 min.. she feels so changed.. the understanding of the oneness has settled in more and it is so profound... life doesnt seem the same.. it feels like it takes forever to go through the motions... one freaky thing swim would like to mention.. swims sis lighter malfunctioned a bit.. so it took a little longer for her to take her hit.. and she exhaled.. she told swim that when she first came to consciousness and swim still wasnt, she turned swims body over and swims eyes were open, but they were only a pale yellow.. there was no black in them...

the next night they did it again... after such a large amount the first time they decided to try a lesser amount the second.. only about 50 mg.. they once again sat in the buddha position and meditated beforehand.. once again swim took the hit in whole and did not exhale.. they flew to hyperspace once more.. this time seemingly in some place of ooze... swim felt as if smothered in the ooze.. and like it was everywhere.. there was these gulping, gagging regurgitating noises and the colors were orange and green and white.. slowly the room started to take shape again.. was she all wet? she was touching herself trying to figure out... what was this thing in her hand/? oh... a lighter... she couldnt speak yet... she could see some type of crazy field of energy around the tv and dj equipment in the living room... slowly again she could speak... and her and her sister went over what they experienced... where they went they were together... they both heard the sounds and saw the same colors! but both did not experience the level of the night before... they were not again catapulted into outer space.. and were therefor disappointed... swim feels she liked that much better... and that had lasted much longer.. this only lasted about 10-15 min for it to go away... swim loved the high dose of 100 mg but understands that it is not for everyone.. she urges that this high dosage definitely has given her a constant desire to be in hyperspace.. swim is struggling to focus as she sees the tasks at hand as meager but then keeps reminding herself of what she was afterall taught in her trip.. EVERYTHING MATTERS!! every little thing builds upon every other little thing and EVERYTHING MATTERS! unfortunately these experiences have managed to further isolate her from others as she knows most people cannot concieve of or understand nor do they want to the teachings dmt has to offer... she still feels very uncomfortable in her skin.. her eyes sometimes shake and for moments she sees things all fluid again .. she remains shaken to the core but wants more.. she will continue to experiment with dosages and keep posting.. any comments or insights anyone has are greatly welcomed
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Hi felinefatale,

Gripping report.

Welcome to the nexus from a member who should still be in the Nursery . . .I particularly would like to welcome you due to the fact that I share the embodied-form of your gender, female. Though I am 41 years old. There do not seem to be many females here and some skepticism that folks who claim to be female actually are . . .Again, welcome.

Your report touched some recent issues for me. I recently had a profoundly ecstatic experience and came to realize that we exist in a slow-time, low-energy, zero-information realm in addition to the fact that something much "higher" awaits after death. This came to a dyed-in-the wool atheist/agnostic and I suspect that this "knowledge" will stay with me the rest of my life.

I was taken by your desire to "drop out" of normal society/obligations for lack of a better word. This is very understandable, but I believe that although these higher realms exist (perhaps just within our minds) that the insights gained lends a poignency, appreciation and beauty for the everyday, mundane, work-a-day world of consensual reality. When looking for meaning, it seems that love and meaningful relations with fellow humans is all that there is and that these things must be pursued aggressively but with mindfulness.

You will return to outer space/your higher realm, I promise. It might be tonight if you hear the call of the spice. It might be in 80 years when this physical body dies and your "soul" instantly uploads to the higher realm. Once the death "upload" happens I strongly suspect there's no going back - no ghosts, no seeing/haunting/floating above Earth, no bardo realms, etc. Also, I suspect that in the higher realm we are reduced to pure consciousness so no memory or ego or personality is able to transcend.

We must cherish and savor every single moment of every single (sometimes pain and irritation filled) day! We won't get another go-around in this incarnation. There is incredible beauty and elegance to be viewed in this realm, from the interactions of family members/loved ones to the joys of human creativity and artistic endeavor to the fascinating realms of the very small (nanotechnology) and very large (cosmology).

Do you feel that you now know a secret? That you brought back knowledge you didn't have? That you have had questions answered that you perhaps haven't even asked yet? I have been exploring these feelings issues and how to integrate them into the everyday, mundane world of consensual reality. My conclusion: If I were to share this with anyone other than those whom I love and trust and folks on the Nexus, I would be possibly viewed as mentally off (to put it mildly), especially by those who knew me before my ecstatic experience. I still have a memory of the personality I was before the experience and it is telling me that I am insane. Rather than not listening, I just smile, understanding that it doesn't matter! All I have to do is be a bit more careful in my behaviors and interactions with the everyday world and no one will know! But, I can still walk on the street and see great beauty in the little things, feel great appreciation for everything in this life, even the pains that plauge my body upon awakening each day . . .and I will always remember/know that something positively apogeic awaits.

I am gratified by your statment that EVERYTHING matters, as we create our meaning and reality (a bit of solipsism I believe) - you create the meaning in your life! So, please don't get stuck in the isolation space. You have friends here in the Nexus. There are still occassionally psychedelic conventions. I suspect that raves are ongoing, but have never attended one . . .Also, you can speak to those you know in general terms about your experience/feelings/revelations. You can say you had a series of dreams or a vision while meditating, or even (the religious majority will love this) a religious/ecstatic experience resulting in a vision in church. . .Finally, you can take the lessons learned in hyperspace and use them to try to help those around you. Sometimes this is knowing when to keep quiet and just smile. Other times, a few simple words can help those around you and in the process help you to feel less isolated.

Again welcome and I look forward to reading further posts . . .

Peace & Love,
Pandora
 

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thank you so much for your reply along with everyone else.. it is awfully nice to see another lady around :) swim felt she could definitely relate and to every question you asked the answer was yes.. she came to the realization like you said that she MUST cherish every moment of this life.. and live it to its fullest.. and while the spice gives us glimpses of the other realms and serves to teach us.. that we need to not become taken over or become distracted by it and that we still have a purpose to serve and work to do in THIS life! anyway to some yes this life may seem bleak and boring and for a minute after seeing the playground of the other worlds for swim it did too.. only after tonight she smoked a high dose again in one hit.. and felt herself so far gone she thought she wasnt coming back.. and then the fear of never being able to do so much lead her to remember that love and relationships here may seem to never quite fill the void... but not if you find your TWIN FLAME>.. find your twin flame and they ARE you.. so they DO complete you.. and its the journey of everything that matters.. she's looking forward to finding hers..
 
These are such great reports! I am so glad I found this place. I've heard of a friend seeing some Egyptian glyphs. The Egypt connection is a very interesting one... to explore, later.
 
100mg? wow.... i did around 60mg with the machine and it wasnt like my other trips i could feel the corridors of all my cells are opened and my body getting totally mixed inside the universe (air, the room itself and everything) which was a good feeling for a while coz i like becoming one with the universe feeling always, then music suddenly stopped and i was like "damn not now", then some geometry started squeezing those corridors so at the corners its like pins are touching to some parts of my body and after a while i just oppened my eyes coz i couldnt stand the feeling since i have a very high dose acid experience and it was becoming the similar feeling. I could feel the sound of spinning atoms around me like "bzzzeeeeeeeeee" and my head was about to explode, then i had a very nasty feeling behind my nose sumwhere like one of those pins just stuck there and my nose is goin to blow... its not good to take such high doses. Seing the room your eyes closed ok, the colors and everything ok, loosng control of ur hands like someones moving them like ur a puppet ok, some guy talkin to you ok, but that splitting into your molecules feeling is a bit hard to handle sometimes. If you ask me medium doses are fine especially if you are smoking with the machine coz normal pipes are just a waste imo. i have experienced not having the feeling of breathing on 700mcg acid and splitting into my molecules then getting lost in labyrinths of my mind which was my first time with acid.. and then learned to respect psychedelics. ok may be its a short trip and high dose is gud for trying once but stay at middle doses if you ask my opinion.
 
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