Linga Sarira
Rising Star
time = 00:00 4-10-08
Breakthrough ++++
DMT synchronicity , i come back and i open my eyes and my watch is at 00:00 am, an instant deep understanding of this hits me, the counter reset to begin a new phase.
I am shaking, because i have just experienced the most powerful, fearful, consciousness shattering dislocating DMT trip i have ever had, I was aiming at a breakthrough, breakthrough is not adequate enough a description.
All Lights off, on my couch in my living room, big glass pipe loaded with spice and parsley.
I took 4 BIG hits, i mean BIG hits just to make sure, the last trip was up there, but this... instantaneuos death. the reality i knew transformed in seconds and i died, i was convinced I had done it this time, gone too far, the feeling of dying, really dying your whole life gone now, it took me and my fear outwards, fear compounded in layers expanded towards infinity.
There is no doubt DMT is the most powerful thing a human can experience, your are dying. Your body.. gone, your humanness.. gone.. planet earth all gone, your loved ones .. goodbye, your friends who love you.. im so sorry i did it this time.
I knew what triggered it, recently i have been thinking alot about death and what happens as a person dies, DMT decided tonight to show me, no, kill me to give me the knowledge. Oddly there was no carrier wave this time, i bypassed it completely, an instant breakthrough is an instant breakthrough your are litterally gone in seconds.
My perception became pervaded by tendrillic planes of existence, multifacetted dimensions slicing through my perception, i looked in awe and awesome respect and with this the deepest fear i have ever felt upon beings of immenseness, entities were everywhere, they did not seem malevolent, friendly or any human description they were just there. They pervaded A space so vast it seemed to be all space, the vanishing point of forever my mind stretched out beyond any concept of a spacial reference. It seemed i had burst into the crossroads of a vast astral interdimensional highway of discarnate alien beings far evolved into the bardot realms of being.
I really was convinced i was dead, I was watching, hoping that i wasnt, knowing i was and knowing i wasnt, grasping onto any relic consepts of my recently ejected human mind. This is it, this is power, this is fear. the feeling of being dragged along when you know you may have done that little bit too much and you realise you cannot stop on the side of the road and rest, no way, this time your going all the way. This was my first breakthrough, far .. far beyond any experience ever, beyond lucid dreaming, beyond mushrooms or acid, beyond full conscious astral projection. I need new words. NEW WORDS!
I am changed, everything has changed now.
Respect to this portal DMT.
Breakthrough ++++
DMT synchronicity , i come back and i open my eyes and my watch is at 00:00 am, an instant deep understanding of this hits me, the counter reset to begin a new phase.
I am shaking, because i have just experienced the most powerful, fearful, consciousness shattering dislocating DMT trip i have ever had, I was aiming at a breakthrough, breakthrough is not adequate enough a description.
All Lights off, on my couch in my living room, big glass pipe loaded with spice and parsley.
I took 4 BIG hits, i mean BIG hits just to make sure, the last trip was up there, but this... instantaneuos death. the reality i knew transformed in seconds and i died, i was convinced I had done it this time, gone too far, the feeling of dying, really dying your whole life gone now, it took me and my fear outwards, fear compounded in layers expanded towards infinity.
There is no doubt DMT is the most powerful thing a human can experience, your are dying. Your body.. gone, your humanness.. gone.. planet earth all gone, your loved ones .. goodbye, your friends who love you.. im so sorry i did it this time.
I knew what triggered it, recently i have been thinking alot about death and what happens as a person dies, DMT decided tonight to show me, no, kill me to give me the knowledge. Oddly there was no carrier wave this time, i bypassed it completely, an instant breakthrough is an instant breakthrough your are litterally gone in seconds.
My perception became pervaded by tendrillic planes of existence, multifacetted dimensions slicing through my perception, i looked in awe and awesome respect and with this the deepest fear i have ever felt upon beings of immenseness, entities were everywhere, they did not seem malevolent, friendly or any human description they were just there. They pervaded A space so vast it seemed to be all space, the vanishing point of forever my mind stretched out beyond any concept of a spacial reference. It seemed i had burst into the crossroads of a vast astral interdimensional highway of discarnate alien beings far evolved into the bardot realms of being.
I really was convinced i was dead, I was watching, hoping that i wasnt, knowing i was and knowing i wasnt, grasping onto any relic consepts of my recently ejected human mind. This is it, this is power, this is fear. the feeling of being dragged along when you know you may have done that little bit too much and you realise you cannot stop on the side of the road and rest, no way, this time your going all the way. This was my first breakthrough, far .. far beyond any experience ever, beyond lucid dreaming, beyond mushrooms or acid, beyond full conscious astral projection. I need new words. NEW WORDS!
I am changed, everything has changed now.
Respect to this portal DMT.
although it was too loud and clear to be real) I felt a presence next to me and as I came down further I was sure it was my parents morning over my death. All of a sudden I felt the need to open my eyes and there I was back in my room.
