Here's a little of what I remember from my first experience.
Timeline: about a week ago, onset around 30 seconds, duration (until eyes were opened and speech was possible) about 9mins; by 20mins was back to baseline. (internal timeline and order of events hard to judge due to altered perception of time; things happened both in sequence and all at the same time, while the whole experience occupied a simultaneously eternal and fleeting moment)
Substance: freebase spice (source and extraction unknown; came from a friend). Appearance is orange-ish crystals with a consistency like coarse brown sugar, very slightly sticky.
Dosage: ~20mg
Method: Glass vap pipe
After having it for a while I finally decided it was the right time to take the plunge, I called two trusted friends over (one experienced with the spice, the other my long time companion in psychonautic exploration) and prepared the place by shutting windows, turning computer off (eliminating noise, though apparrently about halfway through a plane went overhead so low it sounded like it was going to land in the living room) etc.
Chose 20mg as a good starting point, enough to get an idea of what's in there and explore my tolence level, hopefully not so much as to blow my metaphysical socks completely off.
Vaporised within 60secs in 3 breaths (probably should have been able to do it in less but needed the first one to get used to the smoke). (after the first inhalation had to pass lighter duties to a friend as perspective was begging to be difficult to judge, though otherwise pretty normal) The smoke was thick and somewhat harsh but not unbearable, with a plasticy taste similar to what i remember of meo, not unpleasant.
As I inhaled the third toke I felt it start to take me. For a moment I felt a little anxiety as I realised the strength and nature of the experience to come (basically a twang of the usual fight or flight as the ego feels itself dissolving). The onset was accompanied by a growing heaviness of body and mind and I felt myself rapidly sinking into myself and the world contracting (the sensation being like the dolly zoom technique used in horror movies) in a way reminiscient of high dose ketamine or a mushroom peak. As my surroundings became suffused with a sort of digital haze I sat back (as I did so I noticed my hands had naturally fallen into a mudra I'd forgotten years ago), shut my eyes and let it take me, a couple of long, slow exhalations helping me with the transition.
CEV's began as the blackness behind my eyes took on an indistinct, foggy quality, out of which appeared first 2d curved teardrop shapes with a dark, organic, almost geiger-esque look to them. As more appeared it became aparrent that they formed a sort of infinite plane (either it approaching me or vice-versa) in every direction. The more of it I took in the more I became aware that it had depth and interal motion, in that the shapes began to writhe against each other and un-knit in a way that revealed a complex structure into and through which I was travelling (though it may have been moving through me).
While this was going on I was aware of a rising tone becoming steadily more insistent which began to drag my mind with it as it rose seemingly beyond any audible frequency, although it was simultaneously elaborate etherial music (the space which accompanied this sound was a formless place of hazy coloured fields of light intersecting as I rocketed past upwards). I have incidentally experienced a similar auditory phenomenon, though in those instances it began as a tone which turned into a clear ringing (yet musical) bell sound and didn't develop much further
I then found myself in a new environment with a sense of having arrived at a sort of entrance hall. It was a space filled with brightly colured (yellows, oranges, blues) shifting, improbable crystalline geometry. Size and scale were hard to judge, the area seemed both very small and very large. As time went on it began to have a clear back wall to it composed of a buddhist mandala type pattern with rotating sections which slowly synched up until the center was like a slowly spinning series of squares within each other suggesting a tunnel but as yet without depth. The center of the squares began to form a point which came both towards and away from me stretching out the geometry to form a twisting tunnel leading up and away, through the space I was in and on into another, higher plane. As it reached me it seemed to draw me into itself (somehow, though in no way anthropomorphic, it seemed to me to be a gentle female force, the general impression being similar to various nature/star goddess archetypes I've experienced on other psychedelics), and attempted to twist my soul off with it into another dimension.
[as a side note, all the things I experienced felt like they were being presented to me for my appreciation, similar to how a dog will bring you all kinds of 'presents' when it's happy to see you or wants to play, sort of a "look at this! and this! oh wait there's this too! and look over here!"]
Unfortunately as my mind began to twist upwards I guess the experience began to fade because I started to become aware of my body which then started to mimic what was happening internally, attempting to twist in ways sadly prohibited by physics. I attemtped to sink back into it but found it impossible to recapture the immersion so thought I'd try opening my eyes and see what the outside world looked like. I found the OEV's and general transformation of the room to be very like a healthy dose of mushrooms. Things appeared electrically charged, some took on a strange pristine quality, any changes in depth became greatly exaggerated (e.g. the contours of a sculpture) and deeply etched. All shapes, such as the pattern around my fireplace became somehow ancient and symbolic, like a forgotten language, and the air was filled with colour and energy.
At this point I vaguely remember stumbling over a few words along the lines of "wow", something about a "sound beyond sound", "twisting in improbable ways" and "familiar but totally alien". I spent a couple of minutes alternating between gawping at the room and shutting my eyes trying to get back inside (didn't work, the other dimensions were receeding into a luminescent fog) before being normal enough to start talking to my friends about it and get an idea of how much time had passed. Between shutting my eyes and saying my first words I'm told about 9mins had passed. After returning to baseline I felt a little calmer, clearer and happier than I had before I started, but otherwise felt completely normal.
Mind: Mental state throughout was a fairly calm, acceptant, awareness. Everything other than pure awareness vanished as it kicked in. Any thoughts which formed were non-verbal and un-like acid et al didn't really affect or diminish the experience via breaking concentration or re-introduction of the personality.
Body: Became unconscious of my body after the first few deep breaths on closing my eyes, sensation coming back with the twisting described above; upon it's return had the impression of the body as a puppet for a short while.
Overall: positive experience, familiar but completely alien, like a journey to a distant corner of a world I'd seen into fleetingly through a telescope during other peak experiences. I get the impression that what I had was not a full breakthrough experience, but rather was on the verge. Had I taken a little more or not been reminded of my body at what felt like a crucial moment I think things would have changed radically. Eager to do it again, but have a healthy respect for the spice instinctively making me take it seriously and pace myself. Will repeat the same dosage a couple of times so that I have a constant by which to get a better idea of how it works before beginning to increase.
I've fallen completely in love, nothing else will ever suffice.
Timeline: about a week ago, onset around 30 seconds, duration (until eyes were opened and speech was possible) about 9mins; by 20mins was back to baseline. (internal timeline and order of events hard to judge due to altered perception of time; things happened both in sequence and all at the same time, while the whole experience occupied a simultaneously eternal and fleeting moment)
Substance: freebase spice (source and extraction unknown; came from a friend). Appearance is orange-ish crystals with a consistency like coarse brown sugar, very slightly sticky.
Dosage: ~20mg
Method: Glass vap pipe
After having it for a while I finally decided it was the right time to take the plunge, I called two trusted friends over (one experienced with the spice, the other my long time companion in psychonautic exploration) and prepared the place by shutting windows, turning computer off (eliminating noise, though apparrently about halfway through a plane went overhead so low it sounded like it was going to land in the living room) etc.
Chose 20mg as a good starting point, enough to get an idea of what's in there and explore my tolence level, hopefully not so much as to blow my metaphysical socks completely off.
Vaporised within 60secs in 3 breaths (probably should have been able to do it in less but needed the first one to get used to the smoke). (after the first inhalation had to pass lighter duties to a friend as perspective was begging to be difficult to judge, though otherwise pretty normal) The smoke was thick and somewhat harsh but not unbearable, with a plasticy taste similar to what i remember of meo, not unpleasant.
As I inhaled the third toke I felt it start to take me. For a moment I felt a little anxiety as I realised the strength and nature of the experience to come (basically a twang of the usual fight or flight as the ego feels itself dissolving). The onset was accompanied by a growing heaviness of body and mind and I felt myself rapidly sinking into myself and the world contracting (the sensation being like the dolly zoom technique used in horror movies) in a way reminiscient of high dose ketamine or a mushroom peak. As my surroundings became suffused with a sort of digital haze I sat back (as I did so I noticed my hands had naturally fallen into a mudra I'd forgotten years ago), shut my eyes and let it take me, a couple of long, slow exhalations helping me with the transition.
CEV's began as the blackness behind my eyes took on an indistinct, foggy quality, out of which appeared first 2d curved teardrop shapes with a dark, organic, almost geiger-esque look to them. As more appeared it became aparrent that they formed a sort of infinite plane (either it approaching me or vice-versa) in every direction. The more of it I took in the more I became aware that it had depth and interal motion, in that the shapes began to writhe against each other and un-knit in a way that revealed a complex structure into and through which I was travelling (though it may have been moving through me).
While this was going on I was aware of a rising tone becoming steadily more insistent which began to drag my mind with it as it rose seemingly beyond any audible frequency, although it was simultaneously elaborate etherial music (the space which accompanied this sound was a formless place of hazy coloured fields of light intersecting as I rocketed past upwards). I have incidentally experienced a similar auditory phenomenon, though in those instances it began as a tone which turned into a clear ringing (yet musical) bell sound and didn't develop much further
I then found myself in a new environment with a sense of having arrived at a sort of entrance hall. It was a space filled with brightly colured (yellows, oranges, blues) shifting, improbable crystalline geometry. Size and scale were hard to judge, the area seemed both very small and very large. As time went on it began to have a clear back wall to it composed of a buddhist mandala type pattern with rotating sections which slowly synched up until the center was like a slowly spinning series of squares within each other suggesting a tunnel but as yet without depth. The center of the squares began to form a point which came both towards and away from me stretching out the geometry to form a twisting tunnel leading up and away, through the space I was in and on into another, higher plane. As it reached me it seemed to draw me into itself (somehow, though in no way anthropomorphic, it seemed to me to be a gentle female force, the general impression being similar to various nature/star goddess archetypes I've experienced on other psychedelics), and attempted to twist my soul off with it into another dimension.
[as a side note, all the things I experienced felt like they were being presented to me for my appreciation, similar to how a dog will bring you all kinds of 'presents' when it's happy to see you or wants to play, sort of a "look at this! and this! oh wait there's this too! and look over here!"]
Unfortunately as my mind began to twist upwards I guess the experience began to fade because I started to become aware of my body which then started to mimic what was happening internally, attempting to twist in ways sadly prohibited by physics. I attemtped to sink back into it but found it impossible to recapture the immersion so thought I'd try opening my eyes and see what the outside world looked like. I found the OEV's and general transformation of the room to be very like a healthy dose of mushrooms. Things appeared electrically charged, some took on a strange pristine quality, any changes in depth became greatly exaggerated (e.g. the contours of a sculpture) and deeply etched. All shapes, such as the pattern around my fireplace became somehow ancient and symbolic, like a forgotten language, and the air was filled with colour and energy.
At this point I vaguely remember stumbling over a few words along the lines of "wow", something about a "sound beyond sound", "twisting in improbable ways" and "familiar but totally alien". I spent a couple of minutes alternating between gawping at the room and shutting my eyes trying to get back inside (didn't work, the other dimensions were receeding into a luminescent fog) before being normal enough to start talking to my friends about it and get an idea of how much time had passed. Between shutting my eyes and saying my first words I'm told about 9mins had passed. After returning to baseline I felt a little calmer, clearer and happier than I had before I started, but otherwise felt completely normal.
Mind: Mental state throughout was a fairly calm, acceptant, awareness. Everything other than pure awareness vanished as it kicked in. Any thoughts which formed were non-verbal and un-like acid et al didn't really affect or diminish the experience via breaking concentration or re-introduction of the personality.
Body: Became unconscious of my body after the first few deep breaths on closing my eyes, sensation coming back with the twisting described above; upon it's return had the impression of the body as a puppet for a short while.
Overall: positive experience, familiar but completely alien, like a journey to a distant corner of a world I'd seen into fleetingly through a telescope during other peak experiences. I get the impression that what I had was not a full breakthrough experience, but rather was on the verge. Had I taken a little more or not been reminded of my body at what felt like a crucial moment I think things would have changed radically. Eager to do it again, but have a healthy respect for the spice instinctively making me take it seriously and pace myself. Will repeat the same dosage a couple of times so that I have a constant by which to get a better idea of how it works before beginning to increase.
I've fallen completely in love, nothing else will ever suffice.
