Zacjen
Rising Star
My guide did not want to do Aya with me because of my age (79) and the physical effects purging etc.
We did a session of vaped DMT which was very powerful but did not take me where I had hoped but it was very encouraging and immensely powerful and for good.
We went to a almost deserted resort place in the outback bush that was officially closed down but we were being led there as what was planned did not occur and this was ideal.
I had tried mushies twice before at 5g. These were encouraging, peaceful and very revealing about my own spiritual pride of which which I was previously unaware. A few days before I did this one we did a breathing session (no chemicals) which for me was a full blown exorcism and freeing. I found it hard to believe that could happen just using a breathing method. An evil spirit left me.
My intention on each time I have used psychedelic's was to become unified with 'The Sprit' and all of creation. My guide suggested I should have an intention, so apart from being open to the union experience I had the intention of having my impatience, frustration and anger removed.
After settling in and making sure we would be left alone we started the music and I drank half of the mushies with cacao and other rich tasting stuff (previous time I just ate them). We just lied down and listned to the music singing and didge. Things started to happen after about 1.5 hours later. There was a female singer of someone using mushies which was very spiritual and absorbing and leading. I levelled out a bit but do not know the timing and had the rest of the mushies and the journey progressed.
Now it gets hard to explain. Later as I was returning to normal the way I could express and share the experience became a major problem as it was beyond human thought / perception as we have been taught. Using our words to express such thoughts, feelings, experiences would only detract from it and even trivialize the reality, love, creation, wonder of it. I went back to before creation and experienced just wonder and gratitude, love and bliss and..?. Again beyond human concepts. I have been hoping to get a brief experience of what the 'Hereafter', 'Spirit's Kingdom' " Union with God" was like, for encouragement with the rest of this life, and I did. Beyond words again.
Love and life became a relationship of love and energy peace and overwhelmingly "good".
Without giving a wrong impression all I can say is that I never expected the love to be revealed in something so apparently insignificant and based on only my outgoing of spirit and love. I have been taught to expect that such revelations would come from very significant and important others but nothing could be further from my truth. Love expressed in a relationship with life? Near death and very willing to die. I have only overwhelming gratitude for creation, creator so far beyond what I could have dreamed of. Just overwhelming wonder and gratitude. That is about all I can express as the rest is not expressible in human terms. The aim I had in the beginning for defect removal just faded into insignificance but with a sense that it would be taken care of. Sorry to keep saying it but it was a real dilemma for me about how to share this. I have people whom I normally share deep stuff with but I just have to accept that I cannot express or share this effectively. It would only trivialize it.
To conclude I experienced what I was seeking only it was more powerful, loving and mystical than I could have humanly perceived. I just feel so overwhelmingly grateful for "Creation". More does not need to be revealed.
We did a session of vaped DMT which was very powerful but did not take me where I had hoped but it was very encouraging and immensely powerful and for good.
We went to a almost deserted resort place in the outback bush that was officially closed down but we were being led there as what was planned did not occur and this was ideal.
I had tried mushies twice before at 5g. These were encouraging, peaceful and very revealing about my own spiritual pride of which which I was previously unaware. A few days before I did this one we did a breathing session (no chemicals) which for me was a full blown exorcism and freeing. I found it hard to believe that could happen just using a breathing method. An evil spirit left me.
My intention on each time I have used psychedelic's was to become unified with 'The Sprit' and all of creation. My guide suggested I should have an intention, so apart from being open to the union experience I had the intention of having my impatience, frustration and anger removed.
After settling in and making sure we would be left alone we started the music and I drank half of the mushies with cacao and other rich tasting stuff (previous time I just ate them). We just lied down and listned to the music singing and didge. Things started to happen after about 1.5 hours later. There was a female singer of someone using mushies which was very spiritual and absorbing and leading. I levelled out a bit but do not know the timing and had the rest of the mushies and the journey progressed.
Now it gets hard to explain. Later as I was returning to normal the way I could express and share the experience became a major problem as it was beyond human thought / perception as we have been taught. Using our words to express such thoughts, feelings, experiences would only detract from it and even trivialize the reality, love, creation, wonder of it. I went back to before creation and experienced just wonder and gratitude, love and bliss and..?. Again beyond human concepts. I have been hoping to get a brief experience of what the 'Hereafter', 'Spirit's Kingdom' " Union with God" was like, for encouragement with the rest of this life, and I did. Beyond words again.
Love and life became a relationship of love and energy peace and overwhelmingly "good".
Without giving a wrong impression all I can say is that I never expected the love to be revealed in something so apparently insignificant and based on only my outgoing of spirit and love. I have been taught to expect that such revelations would come from very significant and important others but nothing could be further from my truth. Love expressed in a relationship with life? Near death and very willing to die. I have only overwhelming gratitude for creation, creator so far beyond what I could have dreamed of. Just overwhelming wonder and gratitude. That is about all I can express as the rest is not expressible in human terms. The aim I had in the beginning for defect removal just faded into insignificance but with a sense that it would be taken care of. Sorry to keep saying it but it was a real dilemma for me about how to share this. I have people whom I normally share deep stuff with but I just have to accept that I cannot express or share this effectively. It would only trivialize it.
To conclude I experienced what I was seeking only it was more powerful, loving and mystical than I could have humanly perceived. I just feel so overwhelmingly grateful for "Creation". More does not need to be revealed.
