Hi friend, thanks for the introduction. I was definitely struck with some awe, it sounds as if you are quite knowledgeable as to your own spirituality and that is just amazing. As for your practice of meditations please keep this ongoing as it may be the most valuable tool you have. As for advice on substances I find it impossible to be in any way capable of giving you decent advice, with any substance there are risks, for most with DMT I would warn only of finding out things one may be unwilling to except, or even grandiose delusions at time, though one shouldn't gamble with there health. I would recommend being upfront with a doctor perhaps if you have one you could trust, confidentiality should apply. See if you can find any stories similar to your own. Ask yourself honestly if you feel that you are capable, physically, mentally. Then I would also have to say that many people, certainly ones who understand well things of spiritual nature such as your self, pursue these paths with strict rules against sunstance, perhaps some of the most enlightened. I just have to ask you to take genuine consideration and time to think this through. And please consult someone with experience and then one with professional expertise, as I have neither, but wish you well in lifes journey. I do as well wish to hear more from you on your path.