Hi friends,
I want to share the experience of two recent journeys with you.
On my second breakthrough, I felt a force grab hold of my body and snap me into some sort of what I can only describe as a communication frequency. CEVs wavered along with the sensation of my brain being tuned into a frequency like a radio. The wavering stopped at a certain point, accompanied by a sense of my brain being aligned or tuned. Then I became aware of some form of intelligence. I reached out to it and made my first contact.
Let me say at this point, that prior to this experience I was not a believer. I am a scientist, sceptical by nature and of course conditioned by western materialism. My immediate impression with this experience however, was that it was blatantly some form of natural phenomena, occurring in tandem with and not just as a result of my brain being infused with DMT.
In my notes afterwards I recorded that some form of hyper information transfer occurred between me and this entity. However, I forgot the details. Now this is where it gets interesting...
Third breakthrough (this time at a friends place, previously I was going solo), I had the exact same experience as before! The hyper information transfer I forgot last time occurred again, and step by step it was exactly the same. This time I remembered parts of it and will try to describe it:
I had a traumatic return in the presence of my friend (which is a different topic) where I thought I had blown my brain for good. But when I remembered what DMT was and what I was doing, I quickly calmed down...
Interestingly, my friend says my hands didn't move. I couldn't believe this as I recall vaguely thinking that he must be astounded by smooth, attuned movements that were occurring.
What really amazes me here though is that the experience was repeated. The entity. The music. The mudra. The phrases and controlled movements. The hyper complex information exchanges. Everything was exactly the same: twice in a row!
In a sense this experience has frustrated me. I had to smoalk a little more later on just to convince myself that I wouldn't always have to encounter this entity. I didn't push on to breakthrough again, but the undertones and CEVs had a very different feel (which was enough for now).
I really implore anyone reading this to help me put it in perspective and share any similar experiences. I'm laying off the spice while I digest this. I know it can't really be answered, but it makes for helluva interesting musings! I might use it as writing material or something. Certainly I don't hope to understand it in terms of baseline reality.
As always, thanks to anyone who's taken the time to read this.
EDIT: Just removed the call for integration assistance from the subject title, as after a few days now I'm feeling super. I think what shook me the most was the traumatic return which was due to reckless dosing.
I want to share the experience of two recent journeys with you.
On my second breakthrough, I felt a force grab hold of my body and snap me into some sort of what I can only describe as a communication frequency. CEVs wavered along with the sensation of my brain being tuned into a frequency like a radio. The wavering stopped at a certain point, accompanied by a sense of my brain being aligned or tuned. Then I became aware of some form of intelligence. I reached out to it and made my first contact.
Let me say at this point, that prior to this experience I was not a believer. I am a scientist, sceptical by nature and of course conditioned by western materialism. My immediate impression with this experience however, was that it was blatantly some form of natural phenomena, occurring in tandem with and not just as a result of my brain being infused with DMT.
In my notes afterwards I recorded that some form of hyper information transfer occurred between me and this entity. However, I forgot the details. Now this is where it gets interesting...
Third breakthrough (this time at a friends place, previously I was going solo), I had the exact same experience as before! The hyper information transfer I forgot last time occurred again, and step by step it was exactly the same. This time I remembered parts of it and will try to describe it:
- After the initial frequency tuning the CEV patterns stabilise and the head of an entity appears in the centre (further investigation leads me to suspect it could be what others have termed the "Mantid"; a grey mantis like head with a dominant reddish-black (third?) eye holding my gaze).
- The head starts bobbling from side to side (like the traditional Indian head bobble)
- A strange, alien music drones in hypnotically
- The entity takes control of the experience and elaborates a series of steps to a process. It seems to be communicating some form of algorithm or technical knowledge.
- My left hand spontaneously forms this mudra (in pulling the image I see that it's known as a jnana mudra--related to knowledge):
- When each step begins, the entity utters a phrase which I interpret in English and I feel my left hand drawn to different positions in space and points on my body. I can't recall the sequence exactly but it's something like:
- "Start here..." the mudra forms with my hand at rest between naval and groin
- "Then you do this..." my hand is raised to my breast bone.
- "Then this..." my goes to the point in between my eyes
- "Then out here..." my arm extends out and to the left at an angle of about 45 degrees to my body
- On each step, I have the distinct feeling of being controlled. In between steps I forget this, and as the next step begins, as the entity utters a phrase, I am reminded that I am not in control here. My hand is then moved to show me how powerless I am to do anything.
- After a step has begun (i.e., after a phrase is uttered and my hand repositioned), the entity initiates another level of hyper information transfer. I couldn't hold onto the details (perhaps I will recall them if this experience repeats itself again?). I do however, remember the information being conveyed via visuals and sound sequences (I remember a spiralling, red and green DNA strand being described to me in this fashion).
- After the sequence is repeated a few times (I can't say with certainty that it was the same information reiterated) my hands are brought peacefully into my lap and the journey ends.
I had a traumatic return in the presence of my friend (which is a different topic) where I thought I had blown my brain for good. But when I remembered what DMT was and what I was doing, I quickly calmed down...
Interestingly, my friend says my hands didn't move. I couldn't believe this as I recall vaguely thinking that he must be astounded by smooth, attuned movements that were occurring.
What really amazes me here though is that the experience was repeated. The entity. The music. The mudra. The phrases and controlled movements. The hyper complex information exchanges. Everything was exactly the same: twice in a row!
In a sense this experience has frustrated me. I had to smoalk a little more later on just to convince myself that I wouldn't always have to encounter this entity. I didn't push on to breakthrough again, but the undertones and CEVs had a very different feel (which was enough for now).
I really implore anyone reading this to help me put it in perspective and share any similar experiences. I'm laying off the spice while I digest this. I know it can't really be answered, but it makes for helluva interesting musings! I might use it as writing material or something. Certainly I don't hope to understand it in terms of baseline reality.
As always, thanks to anyone who's taken the time to read this.
EDIT: Just removed the call for integration assistance from the subject title, as after a few days now I'm feeling super. I think what shook me the most was the traumatic return which was due to reckless dosing.
