Welcome to the Nexus, yeah to become a more positive, worry free person, sounds very desirable. Take your time to explore dmt - the path is the goal. If you like philosophy books i highly recommend to read the Vedas the Hindu philosophy. A summary and translation (Sanskrit to German, my first language) of it gave me deep insights in the structure and function of the Universe and the dimensions 7above and 7below the mundane plane.

As i discovered with the passing of the years (i'm over 40) it goes easier as older i get.

I quit everything i dislike and try to go with the flow!