I just smoked it. Wow, what a load of my chest to know that I'm finally successful in extracting and I can get more of this beautiful substance when I need to.
Everything started morphing, shape shifting. within seconds of inhaling I KNEW I was tripping, not like before with the bic and bulb vape, where it was HIGH anticipation followed by the thunderous crash of disappointment. I become more and more nauseous. I was getting tingling in my entire body. It was getting extremely difficult to breathe. I began sweating profusely. It felt like there were pools of sweat in my palms. I knew the feeling - anxiety attack. I only had it once before. I wanted to puke badly but it gradually subsided. From there I just sat in my dark room, window open, looking at my carpet. It was beautiful. My jeans caught my attention. They began moving, really moving hard! EVERYTHING was breathing. The world was SO much more beautiful! But it was really bad and scary at first.
I can think of a few reasons for the nausea/difficulty breathing/negative experience/whatever you want to call it:
1. I did not do a sodium carbonate wash. I am hurting no one but myself here, but I didn't know about it until just a few days ago, and I was all ready to extract by then. Maybe it is the lye or other dangerous chemicals hurting my body.
2. Anxiety. I am a VERY high anxiety person. I have anticipation anxiety to EVERYTHING. It is severe. I am not understating this. Thank god that anxiety begins to significantly subside when I do the thing Im afraid of a second, third time, disappearing more and more every time. I will attempt to smoke tomorrow morning. I should be much calmer before smoking then compared to now. If the nausea/difficulty breathing happens again, I'll know it's because of the first reason.
PEACE
