I have experienced lots of heroic mushroom trips, and lots of DMT. I have experienced blissful experiences, and unimaginably horrifying experiences of hell, pain and death. Overall, psychedelics have helped me to develop other perspectives that have at times helped me to continue living when I have not wanted to, but none have changed my earthly limitations to any truly appreciable degree. They have helped some, but many intractable problems with living remain, and I still dont really want to be here. Anyway, one of the things that I feel I have learned, is that the spiritual world is not better or worse than this world. I think the balance of the universe, and the mind of God, tilts toward pain, fear, loneliness, and death. I have gotten the feeling on psychedelics that God is compelled to create worlds and escape into them as us, in order to escape the turmoil, pain, and loneliness of being consciousness alone in the void. Because the worlds God creates are all composed of nothing but God’s mind however, all escape is illusory. To get a feeling of power, many must be oppressed and restricted. To get the feeling of romantic love, it must be denied to others through biological selection processes. To enjoy sex, many must be humiliated by not being attractive enough to partake in it joyously. To have wealth, many must have poverty. And it is all God, which is all you. There are always more serfs than kings, always more losers than winners, always more who must be eaten than those who must eat. And they are all God, all us. For every moment of bliss, victory, love, or triumph, much must be endured, and many must be crushed. And they are all us.
Most religions basically teach that life is pain in one way or another. The Christians believe that the world is ruled by the devil, and to engage in it is nothing more than pride and folly. The goal is to renounce the world, and escape to heaven. The Muslims believe pretty much the same. The Easterners speak of the world as Samsara, or the wheel of suffering, where the goal is once again to renounce it, and to merge back with source. What they all seem to miss though is that source/all consciousness/God was compelled to create the world and live in it. This suggests that source was not content being as it is. On psychedelics, I have experienced the pain, turmoil, and suffering of being the All-consciousness alone in the void, and felt the creative compulsion. We long to escape being the All, alone in the void, dealing with the turmoil of being all potentials at once, by differentiating into individuated bodies and limited minds, but once we do, we are faced with the pain of earthly life, which is severe for the majority who are low in the hierarchical pyramid, which is most of us, and we long to go back to source, to the state we once were compelled to create worlds, in order to escape. Samsara is not limited to the physical world. The wheel of suffering does not just cycle here in our limited existence. It cycles through source, differentiation, and back again. Our good feelings are always temporary, and always lesser than the bad ones. Our pain is God’s pain, and there is no lasting relief.
Most religions basically teach that life is pain in one way or another. The Christians believe that the world is ruled by the devil, and to engage in it is nothing more than pride and folly. The goal is to renounce the world, and escape to heaven. The Muslims believe pretty much the same. The Easterners speak of the world as Samsara, or the wheel of suffering, where the goal is once again to renounce it, and to merge back with source. What they all seem to miss though is that source/all consciousness/God was compelled to create the world and live in it. This suggests that source was not content being as it is. On psychedelics, I have experienced the pain, turmoil, and suffering of being the All-consciousness alone in the void, and felt the creative compulsion. We long to escape being the All, alone in the void, dealing with the turmoil of being all potentials at once, by differentiating into individuated bodies and limited minds, but once we do, we are faced with the pain of earthly life, which is severe for the majority who are low in the hierarchical pyramid, which is most of us, and we long to go back to source, to the state we once were compelled to create worlds, in order to escape. Samsara is not limited to the physical world. The wheel of suffering does not just cycle here in our limited existence. It cycles through source, differentiation, and back again. Our good feelings are always temporary, and always lesser than the bad ones. Our pain is God’s pain, and there is no lasting relief.
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