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A Relentless Warning and Infusion of Universal Pain from Hell

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"Take your medicine."
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..*curtain closes*
"TAKE. YOUR. MEDICINE."
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So this is how it's going to be?

6 to 7 hours, stuck in limbo, purgatory, hell, "What's he going to do? Don't you get it yet?"
miserably i'd say.."I get it!! STOP! ...no no no no no no..... I want off... make it stop..ahhh this is stupid!...errgg...." Why am I struggling? My past journeys were NOT like this.

Thrown to the ground like a puppet, hands and knees on the floor..a stern look into myself. face to face.
Mercilessly pounding my soul into the depths of HELL, "FEEL MY PAIN!!"
The universe did nothing but cry....

A brutal forceful takeover, a heartless murder of my reality... The pain of the universe, the planet, and God: " DON'T YOU GET IT YET ? "

I heard and felt it countless times throughout, but it was never enough. I had to become and live the pain itself, over and over. "OKAY!" I'd say.. "But no....Let me show you again......"

This was a very powerful journey that didn't show me how pain is, it was FORCED repeatedly. I can't forget this journey because it created itself inside me..Something thats carried with me..If i need to go there, I know exactly what it is and where to go..

So Love to the Nexus, and just a warning :p. I think the word warning came to mind because one of the themes of the trip was an actual warning..ayahuasca did not want to play around this time, and i think it wanted me to let that be known that it has this side to it that you have to learn about - sort of a precaution for others interested in it or travelers in general, as my previous trips were nothing but warm love and safety. Maybe there is no message though.. you just have the option to do it, or not.
 
I have taken on the SADNESS of Mother Earth herself in ceremony before, which ended with me hurling myself into the snow, grabbing at the grass, crying and praying. I think it is possible to tap these energies on a collective level, and transform them.

Think about the pain we all share.

You are brave. Thank you.
 
that sounds almost exactly what happened to me! it was really impactful during and the few days after, now I feel better than before I took it like a reset or growth :).
Now i'm just wondering when i'll feel it's good to go again. who even knows what it can do :?:
 
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Pain is the greatest teacher. It commands respect and if one is strong enough one may transmute this energy towards bending oneself in the right direction. Tempered steel, as it were. Mother Aya will quench you next time.


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mapp said:
"Take your medicine."
....
..*curtain closes*
"TAKE. YOUR. MEDICINE."
..................
Don't you get it yet?"
miserably i'd say.."I get it!! STOP! ...no no no no no no..... I want off... make it stop..ahhh this is stupid!...errgg...." Why am I struggling? My past journeys were NOT like this. A brutal forceful takeover, a heartless murder of my reality... The pain of the universe, the planet, and God: " DON'T YOU GET IT YET ? " I heard and felt it countless times throughout, but it was never enough. I had to become and live the pain itself, over and over. "OKAY!" I'd say.. "But no....Let me show you again......"
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Wow, spooky to read that, as it is so much like what I went through in a recent trip report. It was like being taken over by some force that's hurting very bad, and it wants to show you something. And your response is like, "ok, I get it, please let me go", and it comes and says, "no, you don't get it, it goes even deeper". and you get locked in there. It is quite scary.
 
Mama gives what you need, not what you want.

She's worked with humanity for years beyond count. Sometimes a good hard knock on the head is needed...some of my most healing cerimonies have been unbearable, but I survived and am a better person for it.
 
acolon_5 said:
Mama gives what you need, not what you want.

She's worked with humanity for years beyond count. Sometimes a good hard knock on the head is needed...some of my most healing cerimonies have been unbearable, but I survived and am a better person for it.
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Sooooooooooo true :)
 
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