This community is really being enjoyed.  Friendly straightforward people willing to help and reassure whenever necessary.  A lot of spiritual growth appears to be going on and I've chosen to begin adapting a similar mentality.  On a recent trip I saw my cigarette smoking to be a metaphorical pacifier.  It represented a clinging to a lack of self-acceptance via the reassurance that I would not always be me.  I'm now officially on the path to being tobacco free.  I hope to continue learning from this chemical and exploring realities outside of my own.  Thanks for reading.