Blackstatis
Johnny Noone
hello nexus, i am fairly new here. been floating around for a little bit, checking teks, and trying to contribute to posts that i am allowed. Albeit, i would like for you to allow me to introduce myself.
I'm in my mid 20's and have been a frequent to the world of psychedelics and having a short stint with chemical drugs, mostly coke and MDMA. throughout the past few years i have come to the realization that there are certain substances that are here to help us and guide us through life and provide us with more insight about ourselves and the world around us and that not every mind altering substance is for everyone, and also that you have to find a proper dose for the individual.
a couple years ago i was in more of a party frame of mind, however still having my inner student, craving to learn about everything, looking out for me. It was when after a few weeks of partying with my friends doin lines, that i was introduced to molly. almost immediately i was shown how destructive and useless cocaine was for a learning state of mind. i quit that and did molly for a little while, having trickled away from that eventually too.
I first did mushrooms when i was 20 or 21, i smoked weed all through high school having never drank, with help due to the fact that i found punk rock as a "religion" and i never found alcohol to be a positive substance. my friends always seemed like idiots when they drank. however back to the mushrooms, i enjoyed it very much. it got me into a frame of mind that was able to explore and develop my train of thought farther than i was in a more "sober" state of mind. Around the time i first ate mushrooms, I had a thirst for The Doors like how you feel after running around on a hot day and you just can't get enough water. I didn't know why at the time, but i am also a firm believer that there are no coincidences, and that if you need something in your life and your mind is right and open, your guiding spirits will bring it to you. Through this thirst for listening to the doors, i met a man that i worked with, who introduced me to the philosophy of jim morrison and the books and poetry that inspired him(jim). like nietzche and william blake. i eventually developed my philosophy further, breaking it down and building it back up, just as i do still today. but the theme that i found in everything is this "evolution of the mind". you can see its story in everything. it kind of goes like this... we are all infants or monkeys in this evolutionary stage on the quest to develop ourselves for the better of our society.(some of us anyway) like postmodern prophets learning and teaching enlightenment along the way. each generation has to "kill" the previous generation in order to advance. how long it takes us to get to our final goal depends on how we kill. the final goal, however is to live in heaven, where we are all spirits, all knowing, all powerful, all loving, positive forces. So, if we kill by taking the knowledge of our anciestors and keep building upon what they learned, we may get there faster. if we use barbaric warfare and kill for earthly gain, we are backtracking. you can kind of see this story in the bible, tibetian book of dead, along with pop culture stuff like space odessy 2001, apocolypse now, and star wars. but over all it remains the same, evolve the mind/spirit.
flash to now and i believe i need to become more at peace with myself and respect my physical temple. i quit smoking cigarettes cold turkey after smoking for about 2 years, which was easy by the way. my trick to anyone out there, willpower. just don't smoke. i started drinking in that party phase and at this point i maybe drink 2 beers a month. i find that substance almost worthless as well. i don't feel as "sharp" when i'm drunk. i think its important to retain that sharpness.
I first heard about DMT over a year ago and that kicked of a long and rigorous personal research campaign. i never put something into my body that i dont have a general knowledge about. my friend told me about this stuff that these hippies he knows has and its about the middle of spring. summer and winter go by and i end up going to wisconsin for the next summer and take up the ol hobby of growing mushrooms. i grew Mazapatec, Puerto Rican, B+, and Penis Envy. i didn't have much time, so i only got one flush off of each, i gave away most and keep a couple ounces of PE's for myself and close friends. Penis Envy is amazing by the way. so here i am back in colorado to catch the end of the summer after still researching and talking to one of my friends all summer long about his DMT experiences and my friend sends me a text saying "you know anyone who wants DMT" out of nowhere. ...not a coincedience. It had finally found me after a year and a half. so i order .5 and make a Machine in the mean time.
My first experience was incredible. i was so nervous because only a couple months ago i tried salvia and blacked out, came back, and was terrified. DMT is heaven. Its hard for me to explain, as it is for anyone who has been to space and seen what we've seen. but it started as me flying through the tunnel of fractals and patterns, interweaving and transforming. i was laying down physically, but standing up spiritually, surrounded by a crowd of which i couldn't technically see, but sense. they were teasing me for a little while untill i calmed down and was allowed to see the patterns up close and a little more slowly. thats it, i was sold. since then i have been doing my own extractions and have been guiding my close friends through this other dimension, thanks to the family i have here on the nexus. sorry if i have dragged on to long, i am also sorry for summarizing most of my experience. this is my intro essay however, and if anyone would like to converse further and trade stories of experiences or have any advice or questions, i would love a PM. take care everyone and i'll see you on the other side.
I'm in my mid 20's and have been a frequent to the world of psychedelics and having a short stint with chemical drugs, mostly coke and MDMA. throughout the past few years i have come to the realization that there are certain substances that are here to help us and guide us through life and provide us with more insight about ourselves and the world around us and that not every mind altering substance is for everyone, and also that you have to find a proper dose for the individual.
a couple years ago i was in more of a party frame of mind, however still having my inner student, craving to learn about everything, looking out for me. It was when after a few weeks of partying with my friends doin lines, that i was introduced to molly. almost immediately i was shown how destructive and useless cocaine was for a learning state of mind. i quit that and did molly for a little while, having trickled away from that eventually too.
I first did mushrooms when i was 20 or 21, i smoked weed all through high school having never drank, with help due to the fact that i found punk rock as a "religion" and i never found alcohol to be a positive substance. my friends always seemed like idiots when they drank. however back to the mushrooms, i enjoyed it very much. it got me into a frame of mind that was able to explore and develop my train of thought farther than i was in a more "sober" state of mind. Around the time i first ate mushrooms, I had a thirst for The Doors like how you feel after running around on a hot day and you just can't get enough water. I didn't know why at the time, but i am also a firm believer that there are no coincidences, and that if you need something in your life and your mind is right and open, your guiding spirits will bring it to you. Through this thirst for listening to the doors, i met a man that i worked with, who introduced me to the philosophy of jim morrison and the books and poetry that inspired him(jim). like nietzche and william blake. i eventually developed my philosophy further, breaking it down and building it back up, just as i do still today. but the theme that i found in everything is this "evolution of the mind". you can see its story in everything. it kind of goes like this... we are all infants or monkeys in this evolutionary stage on the quest to develop ourselves for the better of our society.(some of us anyway) like postmodern prophets learning and teaching enlightenment along the way. each generation has to "kill" the previous generation in order to advance. how long it takes us to get to our final goal depends on how we kill. the final goal, however is to live in heaven, where we are all spirits, all knowing, all powerful, all loving, positive forces. So, if we kill by taking the knowledge of our anciestors and keep building upon what they learned, we may get there faster. if we use barbaric warfare and kill for earthly gain, we are backtracking. you can kind of see this story in the bible, tibetian book of dead, along with pop culture stuff like space odessy 2001, apocolypse now, and star wars. but over all it remains the same, evolve the mind/spirit.
flash to now and i believe i need to become more at peace with myself and respect my physical temple. i quit smoking cigarettes cold turkey after smoking for about 2 years, which was easy by the way. my trick to anyone out there, willpower. just don't smoke. i started drinking in that party phase and at this point i maybe drink 2 beers a month. i find that substance almost worthless as well. i don't feel as "sharp" when i'm drunk. i think its important to retain that sharpness.
I first heard about DMT over a year ago and that kicked of a long and rigorous personal research campaign. i never put something into my body that i dont have a general knowledge about. my friend told me about this stuff that these hippies he knows has and its about the middle of spring. summer and winter go by and i end up going to wisconsin for the next summer and take up the ol hobby of growing mushrooms. i grew Mazapatec, Puerto Rican, B+, and Penis Envy. i didn't have much time, so i only got one flush off of each, i gave away most and keep a couple ounces of PE's for myself and close friends. Penis Envy is amazing by the way. so here i am back in colorado to catch the end of the summer after still researching and talking to one of my friends all summer long about his DMT experiences and my friend sends me a text saying "you know anyone who wants DMT" out of nowhere. ...not a coincedience. It had finally found me after a year and a half. so i order .5 and make a Machine in the mean time.
My first experience was incredible. i was so nervous because only a couple months ago i tried salvia and blacked out, came back, and was terrified. DMT is heaven. Its hard for me to explain, as it is for anyone who has been to space and seen what we've seen. but it started as me flying through the tunnel of fractals and patterns, interweaving and transforming. i was laying down physically, but standing up spiritually, surrounded by a crowd of which i couldn't technically see, but sense. they were teasing me for a little while untill i calmed down and was allowed to see the patterns up close and a little more slowly. thats it, i was sold. since then i have been doing my own extractions and have been guiding my close friends through this other dimension, thanks to the family i have here on the nexus. sorry if i have dragged on to long, i am also sorry for summarizing most of my experience. this is my intro essay however, and if anyone would like to converse further and trade stories of experiences or have any advice or questions, i would love a PM. take care everyone and i'll see you on the other side.
