Absolute Sorrow

[AwearyGhost]

PREFACE:​

These are a series of thoughts and a photoshop edit that I have come to have visualize on LSD, and DMT.Being raised catholic I do have an attachment to several biblical stories.
This is just a series of my own thoughts, while in a higher state of mind, and several years afterward.

Several years ago I had taken 2 tabs of LSD, which was one of my first introductions to psychedelics. I had previously only ever taken a low dose of shrooms, and what I believe was to be NBOMe that was sold as LSD.

I had become so scared at the rise of the drug, that I had forgotten I was high & was overwhelmed by external things. ie. tv, music, lights.
During that experience I was placed into what I believe to be my "shadow" similar to Jung's explanation.

There was no lights, or stimulation.​

I had virtually no hallucinations and was thrown into a deep section of my own perception. There I was shown all of the pain that I had caused in my own life and to others. And how vital it was to change.

Towards the end of the trip I had several visions regarding the cosmos, Christ, and the totality of it all.
Through a vision of Christ's crucifixion I was able to experience what had felt like me at that time; to be "Absolute Sorrow"
Not only did I perceive to physically feel the damage of my own doing, but that of every human; throughout all of time and space. All at once.

I felt that weight for what seemed like an eternity while I was coming down, and for a handful of days after the experience I could understand the weight of the cross.

"Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do."

I then saw Jesus in a different light. My interpretation was that source/(creator) created Christ in perfect image of himself to guide us on our path, and we killed him out of dogma.

If you made it this far, I'd like to thank you for your time.
I do not claim ownership of the original renaissance painting. I would like to continue to make similar images, and would love to continue similar posts.

 

[Ramma]

wow. thanks for reporting this. the blurred faces sends shivers down my spine cause, you know, one of the staples of hyperspace is that if there are faces (human or non humam) they will almost always be blurred like that. What else can be said? this is extremely profound.

visions regarding the cosmos, Christ, and the totality of it all.
Through a vision of Christ's crucifixion I was able to experience what had felt like me at that time; to be "Absolute Sorrow"
Not only did I perceive to physically feel the damage of my own doing, but that of every human; throughout all of time and space. All at once.

I know what you're talking about. So well put.

 

[AwearyGhost]

I’m glad that someone else was able to relate to this!

 

[endlessness]

I do think there are commonalities in psychedelic trips and general spiritual experiences. Like an archetype in Jungian psychology, I think this Sorrow you are talking about is extremely powerful, and something we can deeply learn from.

I have certainly experienced something akin to that, except mine didn't have the imagery you posted, but it was the exact same idea. I remember during my first ayahuasca trip for example having visions of humans hurting others/themselves in all sorts of ways, and felt the weight of it being carried on my shoulders, like Atlas in mythology... These visions manifested themselves together with a physical feeling, like a whirlpool of negativity. At the same time I was seeing myself being operated by semi-transparent colorful beings using their long fingers in my stomach and helping that whirlpool coalesce into a single point in my stomach, which then slowly and distinctly came up my esophagus and got expelled through a strong purge.

It was as if with that suffering I was paying my dues to the collective suffering, but also realizing I cannot carry ALL the weight, I can only do my part and attempt in daily life to make this world a better place. This deep purging and realizations led to me removing that weight from my shoulders, and suddenly having paradisaical visions of deep lush nature and perfect synchrony, where I was one more between endless tiny little shinning particles, all a reflection of God.

Needless to say, this was all a very deep and transformative experience, and one more moment that strongly reminded me to be thankful to be alive.

 

[AwearyGhost]

It was as if with that suffering I was paying my dues to the collective suffering, but also realizing I cannot carry ALL the weight, I can only do my part and attempt in daily life to make this world a better place. This deep purging and realizations led to me removing that weight from my shoulders, and suddenly having paradisaical visions of deep lush nature and perfect synchrony, where I was one more between endless tiny little shinning particles, all a reflection of God.

Needless to say, this was all a very deep and transformative experience, and one more moment that strongly reminded me to be thankful to be alive.

This! I also had a deep purging, that was manifested physically by me literally sobbing. It felt like I was not only releasing all of the weight that I myself had held, but the weight of it all.

It does make me incredibly grateful that ego separates us from this. That source definitely has something going on, and that all I can do is be my best to help it in whichever way!