Oddly enough we both had similar things that triggered it. Mine mainly due to a large use of psychedelics and the wish to leave and go beyond.

I've been going through it for about 2 years. The first of which was just constant existensial anxiety and looking for a solution. I became a hermit and bottled up for the first year. I was in shock in a way.

Your post was extremely easy to relate to. It was also very helpful and insightful to see another s perspective on this.

To all of you though, I truly do appreciate your help and you taking your time to offer advice.

Things have been coming together in the past week. Not as much anxiety