Here's my only hang up.

I can go into an effortless being state where i still get some visual distortions but calm and it feels like I'm slipping away ( the ego I spose).

On the other hand I can distract from this and constantly do things to not be in this state but this requires effort.

So really how do I know that I've accepted and that I'm on the right path?

Really it boils down to how do I know I'm walking in the right direction? Path of least resistance?