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justine

justine

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Hi all,

Today I had a session with my little brother (who is nineteen and had tremendous insights thanks to dmt even if some believe it shouldn't be taken at this age, but anyway i'm drifting...)
and he had a completely ecstatic experience. Half an hour later I loaded my gvg and inhaled 40mg, I was expecting to go to hyperspace since I haven't yet but I felt it was the right time and was
quite depressed when I didn't have any cev and encountered a "bouncer" who gently denied me access.

Honestly until now I have never taken too seriously the possibility that dmt is really a link to other dimensions populated by strange life forms but this experience really shook me out since
I really felt I "deserved" a very good trip after all the efforts I've put into my daily life. I've actually quit cold turkey oxycodone+fentanyl a few months ago (which were prescribed to me for heavy pains) because I couldn't stand doctors implying that I was a fraud, a junkie and since then I have had to battle with tremendous pain but it seems to go the right way and anyway I needed
to quit so as to be able to live a normal life (I felt immensely tired when I was on opiates).

But I feel like that gentle push was a way to encourage me not to give up and continue to struggle in my daily life and I am tremendously thankful for it since I have to admit
that I sometimes feel like life is just too painful for me to keep going on... now I just wonder, has anyone else had a positive experience when denied access ?
 
Hey Justine! Wow... You strike me as a wonderful person in the midst of a even more wonderful turning point. You know, if DMT and other entheogens can be considered a gateway to another dimension depends entirely on your perspective.

From personal experience I assume (but I do not know) that most encounters with entities is actually aspects of your own psyche personalized as a being. But then again, what is inside your mind may be considered to be outside, and vice versa, so it is indeed a matter of perspective.

What I want to say is that it may be that it is actually yourself, or rather an aspect of yourself, that is denying you access to these realms. May it be that you don't feel ready deep down? Perhaps you know that such experiences will force your attention away from other aspects of your existence that in this time and space is more vital to your self-realization?

Personally I have only been 'denied access' when I have been on sedating drugs - including cannabis. However I have no belief that these entities dislike certain drugs, I rather think that the mindset they create disable one to get in contact with deeper aspects of the self. Therefore it may be that it is your actual mindset that is to be blamed.

Take a good look at your intentions to journey. Perhaps you need time to create a ceremonial setting. Maybe you need to be more positive in everyday life. Focus on love, do random act of kindness, smile, praise the gift of a new day with new experiences. I don't know, as I don't know you. But I would look at my mindset, both how you think before and when you trip.

Perhaps you could tell us a bit more about how you were denied access? It may shed some light on the issue. Also please do update us if you try again. All the best!
 
I always try to take no access as a sign to improve daily functioning. I usually look at a whole range of things in my life and usually find issues. There is always a reason.

It can be so many different things.. diet , how you've been treating others, how you treat yourself,
life stress, negativity, physical and mental fatigue the list goes on ..

In my opinion all these factors play a role in accessing the higher vibrations of hyperspace.

The entities I deal with now on a fairly regular basis seem to love and are attracted to a certain
deep pure sincere open and loving core of my human self. This part of my self is not easy to open up and can be easily effected by a host of factors I spoke of. Its delicate and tricky sometimes.

Sometimes it takes many hours to break myself down enough to become open enough to let the magic happen.
Patience no fear and no expectation. It takes dedicated committed practice.

There are incredible things beyond your wildest imagination waiting to be discovered.....use everything as a lesson you will be rewarded
 
Thank you both for your great answers :D

Evening Glory said:
Perhaps you could tell us a bit more about how you were denied access? It may shed some light on the issue. Also please do update us if you try again. All the best!
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Well, I vapped the spice in my bed while my brother was sitting on a chair, the room was only lit by my computer lcd screen (which, in retrospect, I didn't like, I prefer to smoke with the lights on)
and after two tokes I lied in my bed but didn't have cev, I just felt I was at the doors of a very special place and a presence forbid me to go inside even though I silently pleaded with him.
It lasted maybe 2 minutes and after that I opened my eyes and didn't have much oev either (probably because of the lack of light). Not much to say about the trip per se.
 
It happens to almost everyone that has smoked spice enough times.

Why does it happen....?

I'm not really sure. I cannot count how often it has happened to me. At times it is extremely frustrating, other times it feels right, and a few times I have quite grateful (like the time my dog and 2 year old son ran in 10 seconds after my 3rd and final toke)....

What I am sure of is that when you and the spice are ready, it will take you beyond your wildest dreams.

I have personally had many wonderful experiences where I did not break though, but have had great insight into my life and have made subsequent changes.

Up your dose next time, I find that helps...keep smoking until you are there.
 
Are you sure you vaped the whole 40mg's?
Are you used to the GVG? It took me a while to learn to use it effectively. At first I usually sucked air too fast through it.
I remember once I smoked and not much happened so I thought "well not supposed to happen now". But then I took the GVG just to check if there was something left in it and I sucked very slowly and I had a quite intense trip that surprised me a lot because I wasn't expecting anything.
 
Yes I'm quite sure I vaped the whole 40mgs, I'm quite used to the gvg and heat it with a turboflame arc, inhale slowly and deeply and keep the vapors for 20s.
When I dose lower, 30mgs for instance, I'm usually able to vap it all in one go.
I won't smoke spice for a week and see what happens next time.
 
Im not that experienced with DMT but with mushrooms i know every negative experience i had on them was somehow related to something in my life i needed to change, that also included taking less mushrooms for a while.
 
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