Hey brother, just know people love you here and we want the best for you. This isn't a judgement thing..

I was obsessed for 20ish months.. I am still deep, but I can function properly in every day life. In the end.. this stuff is "a side game" and not as important as daily life.  There is a saying..

"Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water."

Meaning you have to function.

People are way more concerned that YOU are ok. Could care less about your breakthrough, that is why Nexus is great.

Suggestion, take some time off.  Get some sleep. I had a day of echoes after my most intense Aya experience, cleared right up with a night heavy sleep and returning to my daily life.

Seriously, it's about love.  No one is judging they are just concerned.

Let's get it so those voices are put into perspective.. If you do sleep and still have the issues, find a mental health professional you can trust.  Please get some sleep, eat well and carry on with your days until you can get there. 

Just know no one is judging you, and we are still here for questions.  Please don't let this push you away.  It seems like you need this support and there are literally 1000's here to do that.

Some people may seem to come off as high and mighty, but they really do care and it isn't meant to come off as attacking, but rather "matter of fact" so there is no misunderstanding.

Mindset and Setting.   Get to that point for a few months.. This stuff isn't going anywhere, and neither is the community.

~I met a shaman.