i agree completely with smokeydaze!
LOL!!
...trying to explain what will happen to you is impossible brother. all you need to know is that you must be ready 100% to let go of everything you "know" and willing 100% to be shown the impossible. reading people's experience reports will only really be relevant to you once you have visited hyperspace yourself. from 100's of journeys i can offer you these two VERY IMPORTANT preparatory steps:
1. surrender to the notion of dying. of being destroyed only to be reborn a wiser, more compassionate person.
2. meet everything with love. the indescribable love, the indescribable power, the indescribable possibility for terror beyond anything.....EVERYTHING in hyperspace is beyond the grasp of that little 8lb. wad of curly meat in your skull. try not to make sense of anything....you are an infant in that place....act like one! observe and let the awe wash over you without trying to place THIS matrix's labels on what you are shown. in time, you will begin to learn a new language, so to speak...
your initial question can be answered simply: nobody DOESN'T come back. nobody becomes a raving lunatic from using DMT. there are those who do not give proper respect to the all-important SET AND SETTING rule and are rewarded with pants-shitting terror...but even THEY come back....and usually...after some reflection on where they went wrong....they decide that they want to go back!!...but with a helluva lot more humility than round 1
your personality will be changed only to the extent that you have just witnessed a oneness and beauty that every "religion" has tried to allegedly "teach". you will feel closer to your fellow man. you will understand that what YOU do affects others. you will see yourself more as a part of something bigger. whether or not you want to run around naked smeared with your own feces and preach the word of the spice to everyone is up to you.... i myself have just been labeled "deeper", "cooler" and "more tolerant" by my friends and family.
you're gonna grow MFA..and growing is challenging. if you are ready and committed to the process, DMT will be a tool that helps you witness gestalts in every arena of existence...including existence as a whole. but this isn't pot, this isn't acid and this isn't ANYTHING that you can try to compare it with....not even Aya.... this is beyond anything you can "prepare" for. this will teach you surrender. truly.
so- let's recap shall we?
1. don't try to "understand" what we are talking about. enjoy our experiences but place no judgement until you yourself have been where we have been.
2. don't DO it until you are called to do it. and when that time comes, make triple sure that your set (headspace/attitude/judgements/etc.) and setting (where you're gonna be during your journey) are IMPECCABLE.
3. let go of everything you think you know. let go of any "wants" or "questions" you think you'll be able to fulfill. you are going to be shown. your job is to be open and empty.
4. meditation is a HUGE way to ensure safe travels. we all get nervous before we go. it's a sign of deep respect of something so incredibly powerful. clear your thoughts and try to just "be" prior to lighting up.
5. come back and tell us about your journey! we are a family here. all of us, unknown to one another and yet sharing in something more profound than words can imply. we will embrace you and support you as you try to recount what you experienced (heavy emphasis on "try")
looking forward to hearing from you.
LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!