uz1l0v3r
Rising Star
I've finally decided to register! I've been experimenting with, and enjoying substances for the last twenty years or so (I'm 37 this year), but it's only in the last five or six years that my interest has grown beyond mere recreation. Having access to the internet and sites like Erowid, Drugs Forum etc (and now the Nexus) has been instrumental in this process.
I used to have a friend and trip buddy that was as interested in these things as I was, and wanted to explore the possibilities of DMT. We had some fascinating experiences with DMT, but frustratingly for me, at least, no breakthroughs. I believe this was probably due to the impurity of my extractions, and perhaps my Eagle Bill vaporiser wasn't up to the job either. I lost my friend when we both had a bad experience with pharmuasca: in essence, we took too much for inexperienced users and I freaked out, thinking I was going to die. I recovered from the experience mentally within a day or so, but my friend was badly affected. We did one more mushroom trip and then I never saw or heard from him again. I know he's ok because we have mutual friends, but he simply refused to answer any of my calls or texts. I do feel very bad and guilty because of this, but if someone refuses to communicate with you, you can't even say sorry.
Anyway, I lost a friend and DMT sitter. I haven't touched DMT now for about three years, although I have done mushrooms and mescaline in that time. Now, for reasons that even I don't fully understand (DMT scares and fascinates me in equal measure), I'm gravitating back towards wanting to experience DMT again. I feel mentally stronger and am in a better life than I was when I first tried it. As I said, I've been hanging around the Nexus for weeks, reading up experiences and discussions. It's now reached saturation point and I want to delve back in to that mysterious world. I've already ordered a GVG and, as luck would have it, I've discovered some MHRB powder in my kitchen drawer.
As always with DMT, I'm feeling a mixture of fear, trepidation and insatiable curiosity. Hopefully I can undergo some experiences that I can remember enough of in order to write about and discuss them here, on the Nexus.
I used to have a friend and trip buddy that was as interested in these things as I was, and wanted to explore the possibilities of DMT. We had some fascinating experiences with DMT, but frustratingly for me, at least, no breakthroughs. I believe this was probably due to the impurity of my extractions, and perhaps my Eagle Bill vaporiser wasn't up to the job either. I lost my friend when we both had a bad experience with pharmuasca: in essence, we took too much for inexperienced users and I freaked out, thinking I was going to die. I recovered from the experience mentally within a day or so, but my friend was badly affected. We did one more mushroom trip and then I never saw or heard from him again. I know he's ok because we have mutual friends, but he simply refused to answer any of my calls or texts. I do feel very bad and guilty because of this, but if someone refuses to communicate with you, you can't even say sorry.
Anyway, I lost a friend and DMT sitter. I haven't touched DMT now for about three years, although I have done mushrooms and mescaline in that time. Now, for reasons that even I don't fully understand (DMT scares and fascinates me in equal measure), I'm gravitating back towards wanting to experience DMT again. I feel mentally stronger and am in a better life than I was when I first tried it. As I said, I've been hanging around the Nexus for weeks, reading up experiences and discussions. It's now reached saturation point and I want to delve back in to that mysterious world. I've already ordered a GVG and, as luck would have it, I've discovered some MHRB powder in my kitchen drawer.
As always with DMT, I'm feeling a mixture of fear, trepidation and insatiable curiosity. Hopefully I can undergo some experiences that I can remember enough of in order to write about and discuss them here, on the Nexus.
