Lampeyelittle
Rising Star
People always say, "you'll know when you break through." Right now, I'm not so sure.
Either my spice is wack, my method is wack, or I am wack. My first test with freebase DMT was 30mg in my e-mesh setup. Strong visuals, but not even a sub-breakthough waiting room experience. Strange, I thought. So the next experience I loaded up 60mg to see what would happen. Still sub-breakthrough, I floated around a void for a while until fading back down to reality.
For this experience I decided to test 60mg again to see if the effects are consistent. 60mg loaded up in an e-mesh setup, everything vaporized in 3 strong hits (maybe 4? I was halfway to the hyperspace by that point), each hit held for twenty seconds each. I came in with intent to break through, no worries, no panic. I can tell how much more comfortable with the DMT experience I am getting.
After the third and final toke, I laid my head back down and I was instantly in that familiar space. I can tell how much I have learned on my previous journeys. I said "I want to break through" but this place is as far as I went. Whenever I use DMT I go to this place, at least at the start. With my changa breakthroughs I moved past this place, so I don't think this experience was a breakthrough. However, 60mg of spice consistently gives me this experience. This is twice the normal breakthrough dose for most people, so I am completely and utterly puzzled.
It's a nice place, but I seek more. I wish for those experiences I read about where people discover the secrets and meaning to the universe. I do everything to prepare for an experience like that, but my experience is completely different.
For me, it feels like the "experience" of DMT is all DMT is. I become its essence, it's physical feeling, it's silent buzzing/ringing sound. After coming back down, I was more scared and confused about coming back down to this daily life than I ever was in that DMT dimension. Although it became very clear to me as to why this forum was created, to possibly try and get a grasp as to what the hell is going on with this substance.
I would appreciate any advice from more experienced psychonauts as to what I should do moving forward, or if anyone has had similar experiences as mine. I'm going to re-x my spice this weekend to see if I can purify it, but the possibility of my spice having <50% purity seems highly improbable. Thanks for reading, friends.
Either my spice is wack, my method is wack, or I am wack. My first test with freebase DMT was 30mg in my e-mesh setup. Strong visuals, but not even a sub-breakthough waiting room experience. Strange, I thought. So the next experience I loaded up 60mg to see what would happen. Still sub-breakthrough, I floated around a void for a while until fading back down to reality.
For this experience I decided to test 60mg again to see if the effects are consistent. 60mg loaded up in an e-mesh setup, everything vaporized in 3 strong hits (maybe 4? I was halfway to the hyperspace by that point), each hit held for twenty seconds each. I came in with intent to break through, no worries, no panic. I can tell how much more comfortable with the DMT experience I am getting.
After the third and final toke, I laid my head back down and I was instantly in that familiar space. I can tell how much I have learned on my previous journeys. I said "I want to break through" but this place is as far as I went. Whenever I use DMT I go to this place, at least at the start. With my changa breakthroughs I moved past this place, so I don't think this experience was a breakthrough. However, 60mg of spice consistently gives me this experience. This is twice the normal breakthrough dose for most people, so I am completely and utterly puzzled.
It's a nice place, but I seek more. I wish for those experiences I read about where people discover the secrets and meaning to the universe. I do everything to prepare for an experience like that, but my experience is completely different.
For me, it feels like the "experience" of DMT is all DMT is. I become its essence, it's physical feeling, it's silent buzzing/ringing sound. After coming back down, I was more scared and confused about coming back down to this daily life than I ever was in that DMT dimension. Although it became very clear to me as to why this forum was created, to possibly try and get a grasp as to what the hell is going on with this substance.
I would appreciate any advice from more experienced psychonauts as to what I should do moving forward, or if anyone has had similar experiences as mine. I'm going to re-x my spice this weekend to see if I can purify it, but the possibility of my spice having <50% purity seems highly improbable. Thanks for reading, friends.