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Amazing DMT-experience

Manatunes

Manatunes

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Hello all.

I have an urgent need to post my story here.

I had had interest in DMT, ever since I found about it, but as expected, I couldn't possible comprehend what the substance really held for. I considered myself truly fortunate, when I was recently offered a chance to try it. Little did I know how mind-blowing that experience would actually be.

My first time smoking it was laced with excitement and fear, so I took only a little hit. My whole body relaxed and I felt "the pull". This took the edge off and gave me courage to try it the second time. This time I apparently reached the second level. I saw lots of animals circling my room and slight geometric patterns. I was filled with joy that I could experience even something as wonderful as this.

Today, my friend came over as he wanted smoke with me. This time I actually felt the harshness in my throat and held it in for a few seconds. I felt the pull, signaled my friend that it's beginning and fell to lay down on my bed. I remember amazing orange hexagonal patterns and other beautiful geometric patterns, and then... Something much, much bigger. I remember faintly that my trip was divided into three parts, but I'm not quite certain as I had lost all sense of time, consciousness, myself and my body. I can't really remember meeting any entities, though I saw an Anubis next to the hexagonal pattern in the beginning. In fact I can't really recall anything, as it was too amazing and my words wouldn't even be enough describing that which I experienced. I remember universe beginning again and again, and consciousness and reality overlapping itself for an eternity. All time had stopped and I had been living forever. I remember faintly seeing my friends face but it was laced with incomprehendable patterns that I couldn't really make out anything.

Next real memory I had after all that was gasping for air on my carpet. I was inhaling the very consciousness itself and I have never felt anything as pure as that. "I am alive? I have a body? I can breathe?" These thoughts circled through my brain. I recall my friend saying to me "Welcome back", which started to loop over and over itself, and me trying to say "Nothing was left", which also looped for a small eternity. I start to grasp the "real" reality again, my friend smiling at me. I could do nothing but start crying after this amazing experience. The after-hallucinations kept going on and on, and they were the most beautiful I had ever seen. I was filled with the feeling of something in me which had changed, completely replaced. I kept crying and holding my friends hands for this mind-blowing experience I had, that I came back, for that I have a body, consciousness, feelings and that I'm ALIVE.

I think this experience changed my whole life. It feels like I have been reborn and many knots in my brains were opened. Some things that bothered me before don't matter after this. I am so happy that I was able to experience something like this. I would certainly like to try DMT again, but not in a while, and maybe with a smaller dosage.

Sorry for the long post, but something tells me I should write this here. Thank you for reading.
 
Sounds like an amazing experience. I'm very happy for you. I think its wise that you take some time to fully comprehend what you went through and why? Of course, you will most likely end up with more questions. Which may, in turn lead you back to DMT or in the least back to the combined knowledge of some weary travelers on this site.
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Sounds like an amazing experience. I'm very happy for you. I think its wise that you take some time to fully comprehend what you went through and why? Of course, you will most likely end up with more questions. Which may, in turn lead you back to DMT or in the least back to the combined knowledge of some weary travelers on this site.
:)
 
I think I will return to DMT eventually, but right now I just want to think about what I experienced. It's great to know that people here have experienced such things as well and are able to understand. I remember faintly that in the end of one scenario I finished something.. Which allowed me to move to next scenario. I had also stood up and kept saying "I saw them" and "I had an experience". It's a shame that I can't recall what I had finished, but I also think that I needed to see these things and experience ego-loss before I could continue. I feel that DMT wanted me to experience this.

Thanks for support :)
 
I'm glad you were able to have such a powerful and positive experience. I can certainly relate with those after-hallucinations you speak of. Please let us know how your future endeavors go.
 
Hello again.

I talked about my experience with my tripsitter yesterday and I noticed I started to remember some small bits about the trip that I couldn't remember before. After the apparent loss of self and consciousness, I heard a voice saying: "There, it came", "Now you have seen it" or something similar. Also I think I travelled at light-speed through different time eras.
Are these "flashbacks", or whatever you would prefer to call them, common after taking DMT? Would you think these bits slowly come back to you and you could learn from them? I would also be interested to know if your dreams were somehow different the night after, or did sleep in itself feel different? I remember waking up around 6 AM the night after, hearing my friend saying "You took quite a big hit" which looped, and for a second I felt that I got stuck in the loop after all. The feeling diminished quite quickly, and I didn't find this scary. I feel mentally much, much better and clearer than I have felt in a long time.

I am still in awe of what happened. I am still breathing the consciousness and all that exists, even if the "high" has disappeared.

Thanks all. :)
 
Congratulations. It's something, isn't it?

In response to your question about trip recall, this is something that's different for everyone. Personally, I have very little (in the way of specifics, anyway). I've been enough times that I've assembled a kind of pastiche or composite memory - but each time I go, the first pants shitting realization to hit me is that my memories and previous suppositions have all been a bunch of nonsense. It's almost as if my conscious mind endeavors to filter it out in a kind of protective sanity saving maneuver - as the two planes are just too divergent to intersect without baking my noodle.

In any case, welcome to the mystery. Take time to integrate, don't let it drive you completely bonkers, and enjoy the privilege of having just experienced a state of being that very few ever will.
 
Hi Manatunes,

Thanks for posting your report, it is a good read! Did you feel panicky at anytime during the trip like you might be stuck there forever? Or when you saw your friend's face distorted, did you have an instinct to panic because you couldn't control it? These are a few things that I feel might happen to me, and I'm wondering does the whole experience relieve you of this anxiety?
 
Entheojen said:
Hi Manatunes,

Thanks for posting your report, it is a good read! Did you feel panicky at anytime during the trip like you might be stuck there forever? Or when you saw your friend's face distorted, did you have an instinct to panic because you couldn't control it? These are a few things that I feel might happen to me, and I'm wondering does the whole experience relieve you of this anxiety?
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I remember that the experience was at times so wholesome that I got worried a bit, and thought at times that I will get stuck to the loop or the "Oh god what have I done" -feel, which I think is common with many psychedelics. Although, since it really broke through, and when the ego loss came, I couldn't be afraid anymore, since there was no one/nothing left. I use the word of being "scared" or "worried", even though I wasn't truly afraid at any time. I think you know what I mean. The DMT world is such an amazing place that your mind will be boggled during the trip and afterwards.

When I saw my friends face, I was at that point of the trip that I had forgotten that I had even taken anything to begin with, and I saw him as an angel or some kind of other being. I couldn't tell if he was real or not. Of course, when I came back, I could remember seeing him, but at that specific moment I only saw a beautiful, ethereal being for which an "angel" could describe the best.

About controlling the feel... I now understand what it meant when I had read that you can't necessarily control the trip. You can only witness the events and so forth. Maybe this changes and you can affect the trip more if you get more experience with DMT? Nevertheless, I didn't even try to affect it. I had been interested in this substance for a few years now, and I had yearned for strong psychedelic experiences of any kind, from hallucinations to even something bigger. When I decided to take DMT, I thought to myself whatever might come, I wouldn't close my eyes, but instead let the DMT show me what it wanted me to see. This also helped me to accept the mind-boggling experiences, like the reality and all consciousness folding on itself endlessly.

I hope this all made sense.
 
FYI - You can go MUCH deeper with eyes closed. Next time, just lay back, shut your eyes for the duration and let EVERYTHING from this world go. You'll be amazed how different the experience is without the anchor of external stimuli.
 
Uncle Knucles said:
FYI - You can go MUCH deeper with eyes closed. Next time, just lay back, shut your eyes for the duration and let EVERYTHING from this world go. You'll be amazed how different the experience is without the anchor of external stimuli.
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I will remember this. When I asked my tripsitter what had happened in the real world, he told me when I had blewn out the smoke, fallen on my bed, kept my eyes closed for a minute or two, and then opened them wide open. I had looked around slowly while repeating "no way... no way...". After that I had risen up, sat on my bed's edge for a while, then stood up, walked for a while with great difficulty and then started to lay on the floor face down in a fetal position where I spent the rest of the trip. All of this I can't remember nor was I in control of my actions.

If you refer to my last post where I said "When I decided to take DMT, I thought to myself whatever might come, I wouldn't close my eyes, but instead let the DMT show me what it wanted me to see." The "closing of eyes" was meant to be symbolic. What I meant, was that I wouldn't back down no matter what I would see, since I had craved for an experience like this.

I think I would need experiment more with DMT to find the perfect technique, if there even is one. It might be different for every person, correct me if I'm wrong.
 
It's all very subjective, and the experience of course is open to myriad interpretations. I would say with objective confidence however that this is a drug which requires no external stimuli - no music, no real world visual assistance, etc. - and I would even go so far as to say that in my experience these things generally serve as anchors or a kind of baseline cross chatter, which tend to limit one's ability to realize their full potential within the space.

I'm not saying that one way is right and the other way wrong. I've had plenty of open eyed experiences, music fed experiences, and even a number of experiences in decidedly unsacramental settings. They've all been pretty profound. But in my personal opinion and experience, the highest and best use of DMT is as an exploratory tool for spelunking the interior - and for that, you have to leave this world behind when you go.
 
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