This happened to me a long time ago, and i am still having trouble comming to terms with what happened. Up untill the point of seeing her, i never thought it was possible that the fantasic visuals and entities i've encountered on dmt were actually real. The first time i saw her was when i let a friend try dmt. My friend left a few hits and i finished it up. It was a relatively small amount and i did not expect to go far. I was standing in my bathroom and i felt this urge go walk into my bedroom and sit on the bed. As soon as i sat down my body was flooded with pleasurable feelings, akin to an mdma high.
Something did not feel right though, it felt like my thoughts were being forced apon me. I started to stand up and i immidietely felt like there was a tremendous amount of pressure ontop of me. When i did stand up the visuals around me changed from being flowing and peaceful to being very chaotic. I heard a faint eco of something saying nooooooooooo. It all felt very wrong, i figured that it was just me tripping and didn't think much of it. I went into my bathroom to smoke a bowl. At this point i had come down and was just experiencing the after effects of dmt. The strangest thing happened, 2 black snake like appendages came into the bathroom from the bedroom.
They looked exactly like this but black
This shocked me and i immidietely went to see what the source of these strange appendages were. What i saw I will never forget, it's one thing to see visuals on dmt but to have open eye hallucinations of this caliber after i peaked and came down off dmt really baffled me. These appendages were atleast ten feet long and as i suspected were part of something much bigger. There was a swirling black vortex over my bed and it was extremely angry at me. As soon as i saw it i felt it try to dominate me, get inside my head. It felt... evil. I've never dealt with something like this before but I immiedetly let go of all fear and put up a strong mental defence. I found courage from deep inside and willed the thing to leave my bedroom. After it was all over at that point i just attributed it to me tripping and tried not to think about it too much.
After this incident my trips on dmt changed drastically. I stopped breaking through, i stopped getting really strong visuals no matter what amount i loaded up. I wasn't even smoking it a lot so tolerance isn't even a question. What would happen to me though is that i would encounter this strange femenine entity, hallucinate open eyed. For instance, i was sitting on my bed one time and smoked a small amount out of my bubbler. A yellow fog then came in from under the door and enveloped my entire body. Infront of my eyes i could see a face, it was very beautiful. When the fog enveloped me it felt like i was having sex. I was moaning on my bed literally feeling orgasems shooting through my entire body. At the time i thought it was awesome, but i was always so confused that whenever i gave it to someone they would never have a similar experience....
Then the fateful night happened when my life will be forever changed. This night i got what i was told was 2ci. This drug didn't remind me of 2ci at all, in fact this was the craziest reasearch chemical i have ever taken. Every surface in my field of vision was literally exploding with colors. I also combined this with a bunch of mushroom aborts. I was tripping pretty hard needless to say. The details of the night are extremely sketchy, but from what I remember I will try to write down. Sometime in the night while tripping I got the bright idea to smoke some jungle spice. I look back now and I don't know why i thought it was a good idea at the time. Part of my mentality back then was, take it to the limit! I had no limit though, i reacehd no barrier where it was too much. I was a fool. I loaded up my bubbler with an obscene amount of potent jungle, i was too spun to accuratly guage how much i put in there, i basically filled half the chamber with jungle spice. Then i hit it, i didn't feel much with the first drag so i hit it again. My whole world erupted in visuals, elves were dancing around me, hallucationations, you name it i was seeing it at that moment. At that point i could barely see the bubbler. I knew this was gonna be a strong one. "fuck it" i said and hit it again. I don't know how i got a third rip out of the bubbler but goddam did it do me in. I fell back and layed on the floor and then i saw her. She came at me in an instant and i could feel her inside of me. I opened my eyes and i was no longer in my bedroom. I was in some vortex of every color imaginable, and it seemed like it was all comming out of my third eye.
It felt like jesus christ was finger fucking me in my third eye, yah that's fucked up i know. This is the only way i can describe how i felt at the time. It seemed to last an eternity, it was the most intense time of my entire life. When i came back i was just laying down on my bedroom floor shaking. I started to trip even harder at that point. I left my body and saw this blue globe come into the room. The globe sucked me up into it, inside was this bright white light which i went into. What i think happened at this point, is that i was tripping so hard my body went into shock and started shutting down so i didn't hurt myself. I had complete ego death and relived major portions of my childhood. What happened after this....remains a mystery. It took many hours for me to fully come back, i had rebuild who i was once more in order to function. An ego death of this magnitude is not something to fool around with. This is when i started having doubts about this mysterious entity that i saw.
It took me a long time before i was ready to journey again, but i felt like i needed to do it to somehow retrieve part of myself that i lost in my previous trip. I decided i would try to go for a strong dmt trip so i loaded up a rather obscene amount into my bubbler so it would be ready for multiple voyages. I smoked 2,3 hits and immidietely i started feeling her again. I didn't want to go in this direction, it felt like such a waste of spice to use it for pleasure in this way. I denied her, in the same way i built a mental wall previously. She immiedetely showed herself infront of me. When she came into the room, it litereally sucked most of the light out of the room into her. She was surrounded in this halo of darkness and it felt like it someone was trying to break into my head with a hammer. I've never felt something so wrong in my entire life. It felt very intelligent, very real. Instead of getting scared i got angry at this thing. It felt like a parasite and was stopping me from experiencing anything on dmt except sexual pleasure. I got angry at her, i built my wall stronger and thats when i broke through.
It literally felt like i went to dmt hell. It felt like this thing took me somewhere far far away. I saw it's true form and it was a nightmare. She looked like a 300 year old decaying woman riding on this prehistoric beast in the air raining down bits of skin and bone. It was flying over a lake of fire she held this trident in her hand and was laughing at me. It tried to cause fear inside of me, to control me. It tried to show me that she was the only thing for me and that i should accept it without a hesitation. Instead of being scared, it only made me stronger. I denied it with every ounce of my being and would not show any fear what so ever. What seemed like an eternity later it ended. When i came back, my bedroom was flooded with this brilliant white lite and i felt strangely at peace.....for the first time in a very long time. I felt more free then i ever have in my entire life. I felt like i had a ton of energy and this feeling has persisted since then. For some reason i was so sleepy all the time, like i needed to take naps in order to function normally. All of that went away.
That was the last time i encountered her...... Part of me wants to believe that it wasn't real, that what i encountered was all made up in my head, yet part of me believes it is real. I don't think i will ever find out. I've never read anything similar to what happened to me, i've never encountered something that felt so real on a dmt experience. Part of me thinks that this thing has been around me for a very long time, and that DMT showed it to me. I don't know what to think anymore.
Something did not feel right though, it felt like my thoughts were being forced apon me. I started to stand up and i immidietely felt like there was a tremendous amount of pressure ontop of me. When i did stand up the visuals around me changed from being flowing and peaceful to being very chaotic. I heard a faint eco of something saying nooooooooooo. It all felt very wrong, i figured that it was just me tripping and didn't think much of it. I went into my bathroom to smoke a bowl. At this point i had come down and was just experiencing the after effects of dmt. The strangest thing happened, 2 black snake like appendages came into the bathroom from the bedroom.
They looked exactly like this but black
This shocked me and i immidietely went to see what the source of these strange appendages were. What i saw I will never forget, it's one thing to see visuals on dmt but to have open eye hallucinations of this caliber after i peaked and came down off dmt really baffled me. These appendages were atleast ten feet long and as i suspected were part of something much bigger. There was a swirling black vortex over my bed and it was extremely angry at me. As soon as i saw it i felt it try to dominate me, get inside my head. It felt... evil. I've never dealt with something like this before but I immiedetly let go of all fear and put up a strong mental defence. I found courage from deep inside and willed the thing to leave my bedroom. After it was all over at that point i just attributed it to me tripping and tried not to think about it too much.
After this incident my trips on dmt changed drastically. I stopped breaking through, i stopped getting really strong visuals no matter what amount i loaded up. I wasn't even smoking it a lot so tolerance isn't even a question. What would happen to me though is that i would encounter this strange femenine entity, hallucinate open eyed. For instance, i was sitting on my bed one time and smoked a small amount out of my bubbler. A yellow fog then came in from under the door and enveloped my entire body. Infront of my eyes i could see a face, it was very beautiful. When the fog enveloped me it felt like i was having sex. I was moaning on my bed literally feeling orgasems shooting through my entire body. At the time i thought it was awesome, but i was always so confused that whenever i gave it to someone they would never have a similar experience....
Then the fateful night happened when my life will be forever changed. This night i got what i was told was 2ci. This drug didn't remind me of 2ci at all, in fact this was the craziest reasearch chemical i have ever taken. Every surface in my field of vision was literally exploding with colors. I also combined this with a bunch of mushroom aborts. I was tripping pretty hard needless to say. The details of the night are extremely sketchy, but from what I remember I will try to write down. Sometime in the night while tripping I got the bright idea to smoke some jungle spice. I look back now and I don't know why i thought it was a good idea at the time. Part of my mentality back then was, take it to the limit! I had no limit though, i reacehd no barrier where it was too much. I was a fool. I loaded up my bubbler with an obscene amount of potent jungle, i was too spun to accuratly guage how much i put in there, i basically filled half the chamber with jungle spice. Then i hit it, i didn't feel much with the first drag so i hit it again. My whole world erupted in visuals, elves were dancing around me, hallucationations, you name it i was seeing it at that moment. At that point i could barely see the bubbler. I knew this was gonna be a strong one. "fuck it" i said and hit it again. I don't know how i got a third rip out of the bubbler but goddam did it do me in. I fell back and layed on the floor and then i saw her. She came at me in an instant and i could feel her inside of me. I opened my eyes and i was no longer in my bedroom. I was in some vortex of every color imaginable, and it seemed like it was all comming out of my third eye.
It felt like jesus christ was finger fucking me in my third eye, yah that's fucked up i know. This is the only way i can describe how i felt at the time. It seemed to last an eternity, it was the most intense time of my entire life. When i came back i was just laying down on my bedroom floor shaking. I started to trip even harder at that point. I left my body and saw this blue globe come into the room. The globe sucked me up into it, inside was this bright white light which i went into. What i think happened at this point, is that i was tripping so hard my body went into shock and started shutting down so i didn't hurt myself. I had complete ego death and relived major portions of my childhood. What happened after this....remains a mystery. It took many hours for me to fully come back, i had rebuild who i was once more in order to function. An ego death of this magnitude is not something to fool around with. This is when i started having doubts about this mysterious entity that i saw.
It took me a long time before i was ready to journey again, but i felt like i needed to do it to somehow retrieve part of myself that i lost in my previous trip. I decided i would try to go for a strong dmt trip so i loaded up a rather obscene amount into my bubbler so it would be ready for multiple voyages. I smoked 2,3 hits and immidietely i started feeling her again. I didn't want to go in this direction, it felt like such a waste of spice to use it for pleasure in this way. I denied her, in the same way i built a mental wall previously. She immiedetely showed herself infront of me. When she came into the room, it litereally sucked most of the light out of the room into her. She was surrounded in this halo of darkness and it felt like it someone was trying to break into my head with a hammer. I've never felt something so wrong in my entire life. It felt very intelligent, very real. Instead of getting scared i got angry at this thing. It felt like a parasite and was stopping me from experiencing anything on dmt except sexual pleasure. I got angry at her, i built my wall stronger and thats when i broke through.
It literally felt like i went to dmt hell. It felt like this thing took me somewhere far far away. I saw it's true form and it was a nightmare. She looked like a 300 year old decaying woman riding on this prehistoric beast in the air raining down bits of skin and bone. It was flying over a lake of fire she held this trident in her hand and was laughing at me. It tried to cause fear inside of me, to control me. It tried to show me that she was the only thing for me and that i should accept it without a hesitation. Instead of being scared, it only made me stronger. I denied it with every ounce of my being and would not show any fear what so ever. What seemed like an eternity later it ended. When i came back, my bedroom was flooded with this brilliant white lite and i felt strangely at peace.....for the first time in a very long time. I felt more free then i ever have in my entire life. I felt like i had a ton of energy and this feeling has persisted since then. For some reason i was so sleepy all the time, like i needed to take naps in order to function normally. All of that went away.
That was the last time i encountered her...... Part of me wants to believe that it wasn't real, that what i encountered was all made up in my head, yet part of me believes it is real. I don't think i will ever find out. I've never read anything similar to what happened to me, i've never encountered something that felt so real on a dmt experience. Part of me thinks that this thing has been around me for a very long time, and that DMT showed it to me. I don't know what to think anymore.
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