twofourtwo
Rising Star
... that I'm not sure I feel quite ready for atm ...
A couple of years ago I stumbled upon a vendor of ethnobotanicals while surfing the internet looking for Kambo. I've always been interested in psychoactive substances and entheogenics, so browsing throught their list of plants resparked my interest in ayahuasca-type brewings, and in DMT, a substance that had intrigued me ever since I first read about it when I was sixteen, but that seemed all but unavailable.
Not that I have yet had/ taken the chance to drink ayahuasca. When I was younger I was a lot more reckless when it came to taking obscure substances and I would try everything for the sake of curiosity. Now that I'm older (I'm in my mid-30's) I find I like to think things over, and accept that everything has its due time, I guess. So that's a good thing. Another way to put it is that I've become chickenshit, which is a major setback …
I've experimented with psilocybin mushrooms among other legal highs (untilo 2008 mushrooms used to be legal where I live) more or less regularly from the age of seventeen (say three or four times per year), and the mushrooms have showed me a lot of beautiful things, about life, eternity, and myself. But the last couple of years I find myself 'loitering at the threshold' with smaller doses of mushroom, experiencing lots of anxiety too. I'm no hero at the moment.
I ordered some MHRB from this ethnobotanics supplier. Half a year later I found some petroleum ether. I bought some lye. I still had a lot of second hand laboratory glasswork that I had once bought over the internet, with the idea of using it in a sculpture or in an installation.
I'm an artist and I like it if some rubbish that I found in the streets, or a clipping from a magazine, or a half-finished work lies around in my studio for a couple of months or years until one day I pick it up and add something, or combine it with something, or finish it. I like to watch things grow and take their natural course.
Likewise with all the DMT ingredients I collected, that were collecting dust on the shelf until the other day, when I gave it a shot and I found myself clumsily shaking jars of lye with 30 grams of MHRB, of course spilling some here and there and ruining the extraction. That night I met a friend at a party, who I hadn't seen in years. He told me about his DMT experience the other day. What beautiful synchronicity! He gave me the advice to put my jar of naphta in the freezer instead of the fridge (...) and I managed to get some crystals out of it, only a measly pinch but still...
I love doing the extraction (I used Noman's DMT for the masses TEK) even though I dropped everything science-related in highschool- because it wasn't my forte so to speak. I love the fooling around with masks, rubber gloves, beakers, chemicals, measuring cups etc. I felt like a true alchemist when I was doing that
The second try was already a bigger success and I now have some spice lying around. Still no 1.0% yield but I'm quite proud of myself.
It might take another half year before I actually get around to using it. I've vaporized a couple of (tiny) doses to familiarize myself with the process and with the vaporizer I have. I don't feel quite ready at the moment- I've got some dragons to slay first I guess. But then again, I might do it on impulse next week, I don't know.
So maybe I'll end this introduction with a question; how did you anticipate your first journey? Were you anxious, curious, afraid, or were you just jumping in the deep? Did you plan it, or run into friends who were smoking it?
What were your intentions? Were you curious, looking for god/ the divine? Or 'just' looking for insane visuals? etc etc
I wish to learn a lot here, I enjoy reading the forum and I like the vibe of this place (reminds me of a certain Beach Boys song :lol: ), so I’m glad to meet all of you. Blessed be!
A couple of years ago I stumbled upon a vendor of ethnobotanicals while surfing the internet looking for Kambo. I've always been interested in psychoactive substances and entheogenics, so browsing throught their list of plants resparked my interest in ayahuasca-type brewings, and in DMT, a substance that had intrigued me ever since I first read about it when I was sixteen, but that seemed all but unavailable.
Not that I have yet had/ taken the chance to drink ayahuasca. When I was younger I was a lot more reckless when it came to taking obscure substances and I would try everything for the sake of curiosity. Now that I'm older (I'm in my mid-30's) I find I like to think things over, and accept that everything has its due time, I guess. So that's a good thing. Another way to put it is that I've become chickenshit, which is a major setback …
I've experimented with psilocybin mushrooms among other legal highs (untilo 2008 mushrooms used to be legal where I live) more or less regularly from the age of seventeen (say three or four times per year), and the mushrooms have showed me a lot of beautiful things, about life, eternity, and myself. But the last couple of years I find myself 'loitering at the threshold' with smaller doses of mushroom, experiencing lots of anxiety too. I'm no hero at the moment.
I ordered some MHRB from this ethnobotanics supplier. Half a year later I found some petroleum ether. I bought some lye. I still had a lot of second hand laboratory glasswork that I had once bought over the internet, with the idea of using it in a sculpture or in an installation.
I'm an artist and I like it if some rubbish that I found in the streets, or a clipping from a magazine, or a half-finished work lies around in my studio for a couple of months or years until one day I pick it up and add something, or combine it with something, or finish it. I like to watch things grow and take their natural course.
Likewise with all the DMT ingredients I collected, that were collecting dust on the shelf until the other day, when I gave it a shot and I found myself clumsily shaking jars of lye with 30 grams of MHRB, of course spilling some here and there and ruining the extraction. That night I met a friend at a party, who I hadn't seen in years. He told me about his DMT experience the other day. What beautiful synchronicity! He gave me the advice to put my jar of naphta in the freezer instead of the fridge (...) and I managed to get some crystals out of it, only a measly pinch but still...
I love doing the extraction (I used Noman's DMT for the masses TEK) even though I dropped everything science-related in highschool- because it wasn't my forte so to speak. I love the fooling around with masks, rubber gloves, beakers, chemicals, measuring cups etc. I felt like a true alchemist when I was doing that
The second try was already a bigger success and I now have some spice lying around. Still no 1.0% yield but I'm quite proud of myself.
It might take another half year before I actually get around to using it. I've vaporized a couple of (tiny) doses to familiarize myself with the process and with the vaporizer I have. I don't feel quite ready at the moment- I've got some dragons to slay first I guess. But then again, I might do it on impulse next week, I don't know.
So maybe I'll end this introduction with a question; how did you anticipate your first journey? Were you anxious, curious, afraid, or were you just jumping in the deep? Did you plan it, or run into friends who were smoking it?
What were your intentions? Were you curious, looking for god/ the divine? Or 'just' looking for insane visuals? etc etc
I wish to learn a lot here, I enjoy reading the forum and I like the vibe of this place (reminds me of a certain Beach Boys song :lol: ), so I’m glad to meet all of you. Blessed be!
