Haha that's the thing though. My belief system is that you have to stay alive as long as possible to achieve maximum consciousness. I'm only 20, but I feel like I have the wisdom of most +40 year olds.

If your consciousness truly doesn't die, but is merely recycled into another physical shell, then adhering to a suicide/cannibalistic cult is simultaneously funny and sad. Funny because they believe death will transcend them, sad because it won't. Only doing good karma on this world will, and that's by staying alive as long as possible, and gaining as much knowledge and happiness as possible.

Also I know this will not apply to anyone here since I'm sure they've came to this very same conclusion, but I just want to get it out there in the open.

Seems like there's still some people that have their priorities mixed up and/or are still confused on what should be a "want" and what should be a "need". Setting aside basic biological functions that keep us alive, a "need" is anything that benefits your consciousness, e.g. happiness and knowledge. A "want" is anything that benefits your ego, e.g. power, money, fame. Set your priorities straight and you'll live an awesome life.