Sorry to hear you're going through a rough time, mr. DMT. The only consolation I can offer is that we have all been there and shall all return; get through it (and you will) and enjoy the other side when it comes back around and don't take it for granted as so many people do. These things happen in waves, and we just have to remember to ride the crests and appreciate the view, and when in the tube to know that darkness is only temporary. One thing I have learned is that you only drown if you want to...

So chin up and swim with all ya got!

Good luck,

JBArk