Are my CEV's talking to me?

[100th Monkey]

I'm one of those people who, despite numerous attempts, has never had a break-through experience. If ever I have had an experience that I could describe as possibly evidencing intelligence or spiritual guidance, it is hugely subject to interpretation and therefore doesn't seem credible. Here's an example. Regardless of any other variable, both my CEV's and OEV's always take on a quality I'd describe as 'characatures of excitement'. Whether its the excitedly twinkling lights on my modem/router or the constantly transforming scenes of my CEV's, everything takes on a cartoonish, circus-like fervor with a quality of excited encouragement behind it. Today I watched my CEV's for some time and along with these themes of excitement I also witnessed scenes that seemed to convey a message. There were themes like blossoming organic patterns...that quickly withered, a colorful geometric living 'target' that was alive only in the middle and lifeless gray on it's outer rings. Again, these were only CEV's but I felt as if I were watching a presentation, my interpretation being that I was being told i am on the right track but did not have enough spice to break through. Is something attempting to communicate with me or is this my mind trying to correspond my CEV's to my beliefs? Thank you for your input/experience.-------100th Monkey

 

[corpus callosum]

I reckon you are on the right track; the DMT experience is a very personal thing but IME, one consistent hallmark of a decent breakthrough is that it DEFIES ones beliefs and ,for me anyway, suspending all preconceived notions and simply observing works best.Dosage and mindset can allow the same places to be visited again and again, but theres a facet to this compound which is inherently unpredictable, and this is amplified by the mindset one adopts as the experience takes off.You cannot take too much for granted with breakthroughs, but the smoothest way is to just watch without trying to understand the things you witness in terms of your beliefs.

Breakthroughs can be consistently achieved by getting your dose and technique right and, IMO, using one inhalation.When it happens for you, you will know.There is so much more too it than the visuals you describe and Im sure with a little practise you can get there.The magic is in the CEVs during a breakthrough where the boundary between you and the experience becomes lost.

 

[Simon Jester]

I tend to think of DMT like meditation, in that I don't do it for any reason. It's a spontaneous celebration of everything involved... myself, the drug and the universe. I bring them together for no other reason than to bring them together. When they're together, they're together for no reason other than that they've been brought together. What happens happens for no other reason than that it's happening... Just one big damn celebration. And then I do what I'm doing, because that's what's done when it's done.

Breakthroughs happen, or don't... whatever. Just do what you do, and what will happen will happen... If you go into the experience wanting something, you're likely to find something relevant... but you know how that goes.