Becoming Familiar

[esoterra]

Greetings, One and All.

After several years of deep exploration into the self and the inter-cosmos, at different times accompanied by various spirit and plant allies as well as sole companionship of I or Me, I find myself standing on a new ledge of understanding and experience. I will describe myself as a body worker and an apprentice sorcerer, tapping ever more thoroughly into realms of angelic healing and primordial understanding, just now beginning to reach a level of INTER-personal understanding and empathy which was previously left to my theoretical mind. This new realm of sharing my healing with other humans (and other animals) to such a level has re-inspired my delving while, at the same time, raises new questions and hesitations.

I've always taken the approach of "letting experiences fall into my lap", which has brought me, quite happily, to this moment. Now, I find a growing desire to take more responsibility for my research and practice. While I've referenced the nexus as an outside viewer for some time now, I come as I am, looking for the support of such a strong and visionary community. I hope to share insight and learning with many of the seekers in this community and pray that our interaction fosters immeasurable growth and progression along our individual and collective path.

Love and Blessings,
Esoterra

 

[Enoon]

Welcome esoterra,

Do you follow any specific kind of teaching when you call yourself sorcerer's apprentice?

Speaking of inter-personal things, a community is built upon this kind of thing, so I'm sure you will enjoy just this here at the nexus. I find this topic a very interesting one, especially combined with communication and perception. I often feel we have a lot to learn in this area, especially since we have just passed through a phase of extreme ego-centrism in the last few decades or centuries. Perhaps in the future we can all learn to place this now very strong individual being we have learned to become into a larger picture and create some interesting and hopefully positive dynamics.

Have you ever tried to project consciousness into the inter-personal space while having a discussion with someone?

 

[Pandora]

Hi esoterra,

Welcome to the Nexus. It sounds like you will make a fascinating addition to our slowly but increasingly diverse community.

Would you be willing to tell us a bit more about your psychedelic experience(s), if any? You referenced the Nexus to someone else . . . does this mean you have tried DMT? If so, smoked or oral and what did you make of it?

Regardless, welcome to the Nexus. Please take a good look around and don't hesitate to ask questions. I look forward to seeing your future posts . . . .

 

[Crazyhorse]

Do you follow any specific kind of teaching when you call yourself sorcerer's apprentice?

And more importantly, do you get to wear a pointy hat?

Kidding, welcome!

 

[esoterra]

Thank you friends, for touching base. I feel warmth from your quick responses, Enoon, Pandora and Crazyhorse

Do you follow any specific kind of teaching when you call yourself sorcerer's apprentice?

I am attached to no particular lineage and am currently without much structure. Perhaps better described as One seeking Source without the manifestation of a Master. In earlier readings from Hindi and Buddhist traditions, I feel comfort and in-spiration through the notions that the original Masters followed the Guru as Nature Herself, rather than a human manifestation of such. In this way, I hope to find true teaching within each action and inter-action, moment to moment. Endeavoring toward awareness and intuition, I am finding higher growth amidst my day-to-day education and practice of body work and energetic healing. My most powerful ally has been dance as a form of full expression of being, indirectly and directly informing my innate spirit wisdom. Through it all, yogic and meditative practices continue to provide both a grounding and elevating aspect to life in its each and every aspect. Specifically, these three groups of practice are proving most synergistic in my expansion of bodily (multi-dimensional) awareness (self and multi-self), bolstered by an insatiable search for knowledge and supported by a strong community of friends and allies. More clearly stated, in environments where I can combine dance, meditation and body work, I am finding incredible depths of understanding and activity into the mystic/quantum/extra-dimensional realm. All of these experiences are nurtured and informed within the psychedelic realm, which I'd like to touch on in a response to Pandora.

You mention community, it teases my subtle taste buds. This is the strongest topic of exploration between myself and my geographical allies. As we evolve into higher and higher realms, dissolving the barriers of our individualized selves, I am eager to watch our progression of communal interaction.

Have you ever tried to project consciousness into the inter-personal space while having a discussion with someone?

I like this concept. I realize upon reading that this is something I've done, without noticing. I will take care to observe and let flow in this way.

 

[esoterra]

Would you be willing to tell us a bit more about your psychedelic experience(s), if any? You referenced the Nexus to someone else . . . does this mean you have tried DMT? If so, smoked or oral and what did you make of it?

I appreciate your curiosity, Pandora, and the kindness of your welcome. All aspects of my response to Enoon, above, have been greatly informed by my relationship to the psychedelic realm.

I've been about five years delving into the psychedelic realm. The grand majority of my experiences for the first few years were solo experiences, either alone with nature or alone in my mental sphere in festival settings, during which I was seeking understanding of my true self and personal identity. Learning to face the darkest aspects of my being, as a human, an organism and a consciousness, and to inhabit my body (multi-dimensional) with confidence, care and compassion, I opened the door to my current endeavors of interpersonal awareness and sense-of-place as a transcendental being moving to activate a higher dimensional society. The beginnings were fed by the loving embrace of LSD and Psilocybin. For a short time, I was placing an incredible amount of force on my journey with the use of MDMA until very recently recognizing unhappy usage patterns and feelings of self neglect. This has been a necessary step, of course, helping ease the transition by providing a boundless basis for full interpersonal expression and compassion. Still, being an easy trap for an active member of the transformational festival community, I am glad to be one level up from the last. My geographic community is blessed with the presence of a Shaman who is practicing and sharing the teachings/healings of Mother Ayahuasca, Father Iboga and the Amphibian Protector, Kambo. I have only recently begun my relationship with the latter two of these Allies, eager to meet the former. Strong feelings and understandings have manifest, through vision and perception, and more is approaching from the horizon with gentle, loving steps. These will experiences that I look forward to sharing.

DMT has entered my life several times over the past few years, always as a strong presence, and only as recently as last June, has provided a key-stone for a new level of ascention. The experience, which unfolded in a most perfectly synchronistic way, welcomed me to what I'll refer to as The Crystal Palace, to dwell for a moment and to incorporate the teachings and emanations of higher realms. Upon returning most of the way to the third dimension, I laid my hands upon the wizard who shared the substance, who's bodily posture was causing much anguish to organism. Guided by angelic vision, I was allowed to completely rearrange his structure, providing a sense of clarity which he expressed was foreign to him for as long as he could remember. About a month later I came across and art piece by the visionary artist, Krystleyez, who created an image of her experience that has been adopted as the album artwork for Kaminanda's album, Gateways of Consciousness. This is the image of what I experienced a month prior, I has the Star Tetrahedron near the bottom center of the image, with relationion to the pyramid (crystal palace) and its voice of ascension. Since this experience, I've had to separate instances of incredible healing (self and others), also in the context of music, meditain and dance, that have inspired me to pursue the topic actively. This has inspired me so that I have procured a quantity of MHRB and am moving gently toward drawing the spirit out of it's body for use in exploratory, experiential ceremonies that will be conducted between me, my self and close allies of light. I've only experienced the molecule through inhalation and am looking to extract for both smoking and oral purposes, as well as synergistic activity with Mama Aya.

I look very much forward to sharing these experiences with all As well, please feel inclined to share yourselves with me. While I am a new persona that you are getting to know, you are all only partially familiar to me. Love and Light.

 

[esoterra]

And more importantly, do you get to wear a pointy hat?

Kidding, welcome!

Funny you should mention. With regard to dance, which I referenced as one of the critical points of my ascension process, I find it incredibly powerful to dress myself up in outfits that help me to feel safe/confident/mystical as a way to push the envelope and dissolve boundaries. When I was a young child, I was quite obsessed with Buzz Lightyear from the Toy Story movies. I have a feeling, had I been allowed to dress the part during that time, I might have transcended many of my childhood inhibitions. To Infinity, and Beyond!

 

[Enoon]

I can totally relate to the dressing up thing. On a similar note I tried combining mystical symbols of all kinds of traditions with psychedelics to reinforce my objective. It was an incredibly powerful experience that taught me a lot - among other things about the suggestibility of our minds. We give little credit to these things - like symbols that surround us - but they do have effects on us, which can be used and misused as well. The same goes for dressing up or uniforms. It's definitely an interesting subject to contemplate especially in combination with psychoactives which make you more aware or more susceptible to the influence of these kind of things.

take care and thank you for the elaborate responses esoterra. looking forward to hearing more from you.