Depends on what your after, how far down the rabbit hole you wanna go, so to speak.

I'm curious about the experience. The demons you mention, sounds like something in your life, inside you, that makes you feel less-than-worthy? Voices telling you these things perhaps?

I'm not saying your crazy, or hearing voices, cause I think I know what you mean. We make up stories, excuses to ourselves for a variety of reasons. And when mushrooms bring these out for analysis, to see how valid these opinions of ourselves are, then we realize they are unvalid, are a means of covering something deeper up, and in the end simply doing us no good at all. Preventing us from living our lives, as you have said.

Guilt, madness, despair. I've experienced those feelings before. For me, the guilt arose from places deep, deep inside of me, of things I know I'm guilty of, and only I know. Maddening because with shrooms, it doesn't take much to peer deep into the soul like that. Felt despair when I thought deeply on my feeling of being alone in the world.

hmmm...I think I can relate to this as well. During one episode, I could actually see myself walking home from work (interesting how yours was going to work). But I could see myself as if looking down from a 500 foot view. And I knew what I was thinking at the time. The thoughts were that I am walking home alone, like I always do, and going home to no one.

And when I saw it from that view, the next thought in my head was: Why do you do that to yourself? Why do put the burden of feeling alone, lonely, on yourself.

And then I had to reconsider this thought of being alone. Reconcile with it I suppose.

yep yep. As powerful as my experience was in getting to the root of my loneliness, its hard to manifest that thought as the truth for the 98% of the time I am not tripping.

Also, on the loops. I ate amanita muscaria once, and had a looping experience about 2 hours into it. And the looping experience is maddening, cause I kept trying to find the end of it, but also knew that when I did see the end, that I was not going to like it.

Basically, my loop was centered on 1) The universe was asking me a question, i'd answer it and say "what's next", and then another question and so forth.

And the word "what next" appeared to me like a 3-d Word art that you in see Microsoft Word. Anyways, I was deathly afraid that the universe would have no more questions for me. And that meant I had no more meaning to the universe, and I would fizzle away and die.

The questions were personal, like "why do you do this, why do you that..." etc.

So, the loop went on and on, and I thought I was going to die, couldn't make the loop stop. Each time I answered, was like I was propelled further into the universe.

At one point I saw a glowing ball, pulsating, floating in space. And I asked "whats next." This thing literally told me there is nothing next, go back the way you came.

And I knew the loop was over, and I felt myself coming back, and then I enjoyed the oddness of the trip (like having the word "forward" lose its meaning).

The way I like to read that is that I met the creator, the thing in the universe that constantly calculates the infinite recursive loop of nature. It said there is nothing else beyond it, nothing else beyond creation.

Still got that image in my head.