Hey. I want to thank you all for this forum. I’ve been impressed by the dedication and community. I know pretty much every question I could ask is documented well in here some where.
I’ve been stalking the psychedelic movement and cultural phenomenon since I first got serious and read Tim Ferris’ Tools for Titans in my second rehab. I’m a definitely a convert and been playing catch up.
I was fortunate that through radical acceptance, gratitude, and some CBT got sobriety to stick but the rest of me was a wreck internally. At least my inability to face myself and the delusion was broken. It still took awhile to shed and it still sticks in some places. Over recovery, I learned a lot about myself and made progress. Still hit a wall where I couldn’t handle life anymore.
I started with mushrooms to try to over come some things, and it did help. I was manic and reckless, a bit of a mad scientist who was trying to replicate the research papers I had read. But I did it hard. I know know I did not do it right. I took a break and slowed down and worked on myself, including nicotine and sugar.
On my internal journey, I was facing somethings and DMT has been in my list to try next, after trying shrooms for a year and seeing. I have successfully made crystals and have plenty more to learn there. But that’s not why I introduce myself.
I did three DMT a couple times last year. I couldn’t breakthrough. I know others have experienced this. But it took me some time before I got to being able to make my own. Once I finally did, I did my nerdy rabbit hole thing and started scrolling through some research and how to use it. I approached it much like shrooms this time.
Ok…I haven’t broken through. I have enough. I got clownish flashy, Tao and Sabbath chaos in peace but not even close to the Holy. And then I was like…oh fuck. I realized the weight of this. I have taken my time.
With where I am coming from, on my journey…DMT scares the fuck out of me but calls me. I have gotten serious fast about some values and ego stuff in my life. This…I don’t know what do with this for me. I can get the research and other people’s explanations and even the psychology or neuroscience of it. It’s not that. It’s the weightiness if it and what the personal implications will mean for me in the other side. I’m honestly need an hour to explain why…but I don’t need to because I have a hunch I’m not the only one. Just that…yeah. Thank you again for this community. I hope to ask more questions and maybe one day contribute when I’ve caught up a bit.
I’ve been stalking the psychedelic movement and cultural phenomenon since I first got serious and read Tim Ferris’ Tools for Titans in my second rehab. I’m a definitely a convert and been playing catch up.
I was fortunate that through radical acceptance, gratitude, and some CBT got sobriety to stick but the rest of me was a wreck internally. At least my inability to face myself and the delusion was broken. It still took awhile to shed and it still sticks in some places. Over recovery, I learned a lot about myself and made progress. Still hit a wall where I couldn’t handle life anymore.
I started with mushrooms to try to over come some things, and it did help. I was manic and reckless, a bit of a mad scientist who was trying to replicate the research papers I had read. But I did it hard. I know know I did not do it right. I took a break and slowed down and worked on myself, including nicotine and sugar.
On my internal journey, I was facing somethings and DMT has been in my list to try next, after trying shrooms for a year and seeing. I have successfully made crystals and have plenty more to learn there. But that’s not why I introduce myself.
I did three DMT a couple times last year. I couldn’t breakthrough. I know others have experienced this. But it took me some time before I got to being able to make my own. Once I finally did, I did my nerdy rabbit hole thing and started scrolling through some research and how to use it. I approached it much like shrooms this time.
Ok…I haven’t broken through. I have enough. I got clownish flashy, Tao and Sabbath chaos in peace but not even close to the Holy. And then I was like…oh fuck. I realized the weight of this. I have taken my time.
With where I am coming from, on my journey…DMT scares the fuck out of me but calls me. I have gotten serious fast about some values and ego stuff in my life. This…I don’t know what do with this for me. I can get the research and other people’s explanations and even the psychology or neuroscience of it. It’s not that. It’s the weightiness if it and what the personal implications will mean for me in the other side. I’m honestly need an hour to explain why…but I don’t need to because I have a hunch I’m not the only one. Just that…yeah. Thank you again for this community. I hope to ask more questions and maybe one day contribute when I’ve caught up a bit.
