If you have any friends who have done any synths, or know where to get some, definitely talk to them about dosing you and being a trip sitter.  I just dosed my close friend who lives in a house with me and three other roommates.  Lets call him "S".  He had a great time.  I've dosed maybe three dozen friends or so over the last two years, and none of them have had negative experiences there first go through.  Just important to take a small dose to see how it goes before you breakthrough on a higher one.  Definitely something to look into getting if you're interested, I'd highly suggest going for it. 

I dig on numerology myself.  Like your breakdown there hahaha.  Appreciate the compliment.