I cannot believe it. It was... like salvia on DXM. It was. I don't know how... where... THAT INTENSE!
So it was like an introduction... I just smoked changa while being intoxicated with MXE. I cannot express how intense it was. Everything was so fast. I panicked. Yes, I was in panic. Music was playing and UV lights were on and I started running trying to turn off the music because I'm living in a flat and just behind my walls there were people that could be mad at me that I'm playing music so loud. I know, that I was overacting because I suspect that they don't care or don't hear it but I was like... I was standing in my room holding my cd-player and it changed. HOW IT CHANGED! It was so surreal. I looked at it and it was like ribbons thrown away. So colorful so 3D. It morphed in my own hands and I looked at the room and it was morphing so colorful! It was playing Dragon Spirals of Time and this music was so intensified by those substances that I couldn't believed it! Yes! Spirals! Everything was going spiral. It was so intense like making holes in reality in my floor. My cd-player just spilled over my floor! In a spiral fashion! I was trying to understand what it is and I only knew that this constantly-morphing, shifting, in-and-out-of-existence THING was making noise that can annoy my neighbors! It was around midnight so I believe that it was like a "shut your fuckin' music and respect your neighbors!" Then I saw UV lights and I was thinking about how it looked like from the outside so I turned them off. Trying to do so and looking around was a BLAST OF COLORS AND UNIMAGINABLE SHAPES! My room was so INTENSELY shifting in colors and shapes.... It was like the whole room was liquid of colors! Every impulse was making beautiful colors and shapes! Then I laid down and waited.... Without music and lights I felt secure. Lesson learned!
Then I was like attacked on an astral level. "Like the whole world could crash us". I felt that police, state, society, everyone is after me. I was so scared! I was like hunted animal... or witch! Visions of disappointment from my parents follows... Visions of police follows... Visions of right-wingers, macho-barbarians follows... Then I just popped into existence! It was like going from total collapse of my life/soul/dignity/hell!!!!! Into state of awareness and coherence. Reality was stable and I stated "if you don't like me then come and kill me!"
I WAS LIBERATED! This statement blew whole paranoia away. I was like recapturing my soul, my liberty and dignity with my hands.
It's curious that I still have this stigma of guilt when experimenting with my mind - be it yoga or drugs... people don't like you when you go deeper into things. Do you ever get something like that? Do you ever encountered this astral plane of inquisition?
Wow! This was WOW! Next time I will at least try to prepare myself. Standing in the middle of a room with cd-player in hands and not knowning what is it isn't something that I could expect from a matured psychonaut
Trust me I was seriously considering smashing this thing in the floor. I can only thank my mind that it stopped me from devastating my room in panic!
What a coincidence! I smoked changa just in the middle of a storm! Yes! Now it's raining. What a symbolism! My trip was a storm and I did in storm. Wow!
I know that this post is a bit stupid but I'm still on MXE so my thinking is simplified.
So it was like an introduction... I just smoked changa while being intoxicated with MXE. I cannot express how intense it was. Everything was so fast. I panicked. Yes, I was in panic. Music was playing and UV lights were on and I started running trying to turn off the music because I'm living in a flat and just behind my walls there were people that could be mad at me that I'm playing music so loud. I know, that I was overacting because I suspect that they don't care or don't hear it but I was like... I was standing in my room holding my cd-player and it changed. HOW IT CHANGED! It was so surreal. I looked at it and it was like ribbons thrown away. So colorful so 3D. It morphed in my own hands and I looked at the room and it was morphing so colorful! It was playing Dragon Spirals of Time and this music was so intensified by those substances that I couldn't believed it! Yes! Spirals! Everything was going spiral. It was so intense like making holes in reality in my floor. My cd-player just spilled over my floor! In a spiral fashion! I was trying to understand what it is and I only knew that this constantly-morphing, shifting, in-and-out-of-existence THING was making noise that can annoy my neighbors! It was around midnight so I believe that it was like a "shut your fuckin' music and respect your neighbors!" Then I saw UV lights and I was thinking about how it looked like from the outside so I turned them off. Trying to do so and looking around was a BLAST OF COLORS AND UNIMAGINABLE SHAPES! My room was so INTENSELY shifting in colors and shapes.... It was like the whole room was liquid of colors! Every impulse was making beautiful colors and shapes! Then I laid down and waited.... Without music and lights I felt secure. Lesson learned!
Then I was like attacked on an astral level. "Like the whole world could crash us". I felt that police, state, society, everyone is after me. I was so scared! I was like hunted animal... or witch! Visions of disappointment from my parents follows... Visions of police follows... Visions of right-wingers, macho-barbarians follows... Then I just popped into existence! It was like going from total collapse of my life/soul/dignity/hell!!!!! Into state of awareness and coherence. Reality was stable and I stated "if you don't like me then come and kill me!"
I WAS LIBERATED! This statement blew whole paranoia away. I was like recapturing my soul, my liberty and dignity with my hands.
It's curious that I still have this stigma of guilt when experimenting with my mind - be it yoga or drugs... people don't like you when you go deeper into things. Do you ever get something like that? Do you ever encountered this astral plane of inquisition?
Wow! This was WOW! Next time I will at least try to prepare myself. Standing in the middle of a room with cd-player in hands and not knowning what is it isn't something that I could expect from a matured psychonaut
Trust me I was seriously considering smashing this thing in the floor. I can only thank my mind that it stopped me from devastating my room in panic!What a coincidence! I smoked changa just in the middle of a storm! Yes! Now it's raining. What a symbolism! My trip was a storm and I did in storm. Wow!
I know that this post is a bit stupid but I'm still on MXE so my thinking is simplified.
