Mylu
Synaptic Surfer
Aloha and thanks for clicking my little thought bubble and welcome to my little corner of the multiverse.
Long time lurker, adherent, and mimosoid explorer here. Recently had a beautiful therapeutic ketamine infusion and the primal psychedelic realm I found my consciousness immersed within has sparked a long dormant desire to return to hyperspace for healing and understanding. I grew up trawling the early web for all the information I could gather--erowidites, shroomerites and nexusians--dreaming of an escape from the mundane, the matrix of the prison industrialized school system of a haunted New England, far flung forgotten place. I still vividly remember my first epiphaneous dissociation at 16 from the nitrous ..oh and the unforgotten flavor of your first puff of Purple Sticky...surely my fellow Nexus explorers remember those days. From there I was introduced to mushrooms and the others--and from that yoga, drumming, shamanism, meditation, sweats, breathwork, tantra, vegetarianism (for a bit), ayahuasqueros, sweats, chanting, and the gamut of spiritual practices us hoo mans have made over the aeons to indue altered states. I haven't held back much from experiences what I was innately drawn to, thought I avoided compounds that killed my friends or seemed ridiculous at the time. (ketamine never made sense to me until a few years ago...and I'm almost pushing 40 now!)
Regardless of the trip down memory lane, I find myself in a unique situation--I've come full circle from intrigue, genuine interest and study, to experiential learning, yet struggled dearly with the integration aspect. Call it ADHD, trauma response to a chaotic modern world, or whatever it is---it wasn't pretty. Addictions, cycles, betrayals, unrest, disgust, unhappiness, laziness, sadness and bridges burned down in rage--I've seen all the beauty and seemingly know exactly what I need to do to fix my life....yet I still can't...or wont. Regardless I feel like it is time to come back around and try again from an older, wiser perspective--and definitely a different more methodical and spirted approach. I find peering into all of your minds' is greatly helpful in allowing more of these experiences to make sense and I hope I can offer some pearls of wisdom before all of you as well.
So since I've been really trying to heal lately--mind, soul, and body--and the psychedelic therapeutics are only one aspect of my bio computer optimization stack I currently have going on. I've been delving more into scientific papers, old ones, interesting kernels missed from decades of buried research. Lilly, Strassman, McKenna--psychobiopharmacologicalisms have become fun tongue twisters that I strive to divulge meaning from as I digest thick research papers filled with heady discussions pertaining to subjects of things I should have paid much more attention to in school. I recently came across a bunch of old articles which basically cemented in my mind the concept that DMT is a required neurotransmitter that we can simply supplement like any other endogenous compound--oxytocin for example (which is known to help austists tune more into their social aspects). I am finding novel peptides for dopaminergic pathway healing such as semax, selank, and PE 22-28. I just began NAD+ Intranasal as well and will hopefully continue received glutathione IV during my ketamine sessions. I feel like the combination of a very strong antioxidant with the BDNF spikes from ketamine infusions are a game changer.
Thanks for staying tuned in for the ramble, have been meaning to introduce myself for a bit but sometimes feel like its hard to keep it short with regards to some things...... but also needed a bit of a journal I suppose. So--have a beautiful day my soul family and see you in hyperspace!
I've attached some relics of my non entheogenic hobbies as well and if anyone else is into hiking, diving, health food, and herbalism say what up!
Oh, and if you're a lurker and made it this far....it might be time for you to join and share your story.
Long time lurker, adherent, and mimosoid explorer here. Recently had a beautiful therapeutic ketamine infusion and the primal psychedelic realm I found my consciousness immersed within has sparked a long dormant desire to return to hyperspace for healing and understanding. I grew up trawling the early web for all the information I could gather--erowidites, shroomerites and nexusians--dreaming of an escape from the mundane, the matrix of the prison industrialized school system of a haunted New England, far flung forgotten place. I still vividly remember my first epiphaneous dissociation at 16 from the nitrous ..oh and the unforgotten flavor of your first puff of Purple Sticky...surely my fellow Nexus explorers remember those days. From there I was introduced to mushrooms and the others--and from that yoga, drumming, shamanism, meditation, sweats, breathwork, tantra, vegetarianism (for a bit), ayahuasqueros, sweats, chanting, and the gamut of spiritual practices us hoo mans have made over the aeons to indue altered states. I haven't held back much from experiences what I was innately drawn to, thought I avoided compounds that killed my friends or seemed ridiculous at the time. (ketamine never made sense to me until a few years ago...and I'm almost pushing 40 now!)
Regardless of the trip down memory lane, I find myself in a unique situation--I've come full circle from intrigue, genuine interest and study, to experiential learning, yet struggled dearly with the integration aspect. Call it ADHD, trauma response to a chaotic modern world, or whatever it is---it wasn't pretty. Addictions, cycles, betrayals, unrest, disgust, unhappiness, laziness, sadness and bridges burned down in rage--I've seen all the beauty and seemingly know exactly what I need to do to fix my life....yet I still can't...or wont. Regardless I feel like it is time to come back around and try again from an older, wiser perspective--and definitely a different more methodical and spirted approach. I find peering into all of your minds' is greatly helpful in allowing more of these experiences to make sense and I hope I can offer some pearls of wisdom before all of you as well.
So since I've been really trying to heal lately--mind, soul, and body--and the psychedelic therapeutics are only one aspect of my bio computer optimization stack I currently have going on. I've been delving more into scientific papers, old ones, interesting kernels missed from decades of buried research. Lilly, Strassman, McKenna--psychobiopharmacologicalisms have become fun tongue twisters that I strive to divulge meaning from as I digest thick research papers filled with heady discussions pertaining to subjects of things I should have paid much more attention to in school. I recently came across a bunch of old articles which basically cemented in my mind the concept that DMT is a required neurotransmitter that we can simply supplement like any other endogenous compound--oxytocin for example (which is known to help austists tune more into their social aspects). I am finding novel peptides for dopaminergic pathway healing such as semax, selank, and PE 22-28. I just began NAD+ Intranasal as well and will hopefully continue received glutathione IV during my ketamine sessions. I feel like the combination of a very strong antioxidant with the BDNF spikes from ketamine infusions are a game changer.
Thanks for staying tuned in for the ramble, have been meaning to introduce myself for a bit but sometimes feel like its hard to keep it short with regards to some things...... but also needed a bit of a journal I suppose. So--have a beautiful day my soul family and see you in hyperspace!
I've attached some relics of my non entheogenic hobbies as well and if anyone else is into hiking, diving, health food, and herbalism say what up!
Oh, and if you're a lurker and made it this far....it might be time for you to join and share your story.
