melange
Rising Star
One toke and breakthrough. For the record, it was my sixth time visiting with the dude (my name for this elf). It felt like I was in hyperspace for hours (real time= 5min, 5sec).
Where the last time I was scolded by the elves, this time I was rewarded (again) with what I call a bliss trip. They knew I was feeling down about stuff happening in my life and was feeling anxious even before the trip. I had been feeling this way for weeks, even being scared of the spice because of the previous experience. I felt it calling me, and I would feel anxiety and push it out of my head. I would say to myself, "today I will go," but I would find an excuse not to, like it's not the right setting or there's no sitter, or I have too much on my mind. But tonight, I could not stand the anxiety anymore. I listened to Terence McKenna and that helped a lot. I called for my sitter and he brought some incense and here I am.
He (the dude) communicated to me that he was aware of my bad feelings and that not to worry, because it is NOTHING compared to the love that exists in their place. He reminded me of that by literally pouring the energy of love into me, and all of my sadness, worry, anxiety left instantly. He communicated that whatever negative experiences that people have is a human condition and that that does not exist outside that condition. He then "extended" my stay, letting me visit longer than normal and returned me gently with the message loud and clear in my mind to take back with me.
I came out of hyperspace, utterly at peace, with a single tear running from my eye.
just wow.
Where the last time I was scolded by the elves, this time I was rewarded (again) with what I call a bliss trip. They knew I was feeling down about stuff happening in my life and was feeling anxious even before the trip. I had been feeling this way for weeks, even being scared of the spice because of the previous experience. I felt it calling me, and I would feel anxiety and push it out of my head. I would say to myself, "today I will go," but I would find an excuse not to, like it's not the right setting or there's no sitter, or I have too much on my mind. But tonight, I could not stand the anxiety anymore. I listened to Terence McKenna and that helped a lot. I called for my sitter and he brought some incense and here I am.
He (the dude) communicated to me that he was aware of my bad feelings and that not to worry, because it is NOTHING compared to the love that exists in their place. He reminded me of that by literally pouring the energy of love into me, and all of my sadness, worry, anxiety left instantly. He communicated that whatever negative experiences that people have is a human condition and that that does not exist outside that condition. He then "extended" my stay, letting me visit longer than normal and returned me gently with the message loud and clear in my mind to take back with me.
I came out of hyperspace, utterly at peace, with a single tear running from my eye.
just wow.
I had a similar experience.... I feel bad, I want to see them again, but I just don't know if I can... I think it's I just don't need it right now, and when I do, they'll be there 
