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Breakthrough on mimosahuasca!!!

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embracethevoid

embracethevoid

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Just when I thought I hit the limit with the mimosa/rue (30g mimosa, 5g rue then an additional 20g mimosa then another 10g and more), things get even more (this space intentionally left blank).

Damn, I'm amazed. This experience involves just 7g of mimosa and 5g of rue. The last experience was a mere shadow of this one and I couldn't even see my hand in front of my face that time. Visuals were as expected, those characteristic of 7g. However something essentially amazing happened this time, I'll only give the highlights as the rest is stuff only significant to me. Keep in mind that I've had like 100+ dreams, I'm not that much of a newb to this experience though I'm certainly far and away from being a shaman. I don't get visions or visuals anymore (well, not the "in your face" type in any case), just a blank white/grey/ethereal canvas and a direct connect to the source.

Picture this, peaking on 7g and the classical white-ish pixellated canvas appears and swirls around as per usual, giving way to the tubular stuff, this is an indication that one is near the peak. I am rather tense and anxious, mind heavily cluttered. I'm having difficulty silencing the mind when an ego-centric thought comes to my head. The thought of "I" in a way that is associated with the self triggers memories of previous dissolutions. There is a thin but powerful veil separating me in reality and an infinite nothingness on the other side, the veil is in my mind in a hard to describe manner; those who have sensed this will know what I'm talking about. At this point my mind was racing and cluttered, then I get to the "I" centric thought.

Cue a sudden fleeting moment of complete stillness, a sense of deep calm which is rather hard to explain. Then through the veil comes a loving message in that calm instant of time, telepathic in its delivery. It's obscenely difficult to put it into words. In English it would be along the lines of "surrender, embrace, let go, clear all doubts, silence, be free, become love, become nothingness". It's really not something I can put into words but I'm sure peeps on this forum will understand the nature of this message and some of you may have gotten the exact same such message. It is like a packet of consciousness, or "quale". In any case, the message enveloped my soul and threw my consciousness into that state. And then I just was. Bodyless, formless, timeless, in complete bliss, unity, joy, love, peace. After what seems like a rather long time, I come back out of this state and piece together what the hell just happened.

Believe me, I've been far beyond gone and nothing has compared to this. There were no exhilarating rushes characteristic of 10g+ experiences. It's literally like I'm near the peak and God just says "fuck it, come in, I'll open the door and you can take a tour".

Another highlight; standing up opposite a fairly large and beautiful tree, oblivious that it is there. A vision of immense energy and euphoria in my mind's eye rushing through me, I feel like a warrior of light or something. Until I notice the tree. It's difficult to explain but it's as if the tree is watching me imagine this and laughing, in the same way that your wise old grandfather would laugh at your naivety as a toddler doing toddler things. A message from the tree, along the lines of "all that energy and power, yet I tower over you, you are small and undeveloped; look how still and serenely peaceful I am, look at how my leaves sway in the breeze, look at how conscious I am and you have merely a glimpse of my world" along with a strong sensation of being on the recieving end of a classic "you have much to learn, young padawan" sorta vibe.

Another message pushed through, along the lines of "you may conceal your thoughts from others but God sees ALL, purify your mind and strive to do so permanently". I've noticed a sudden shift in my thought patterns now; where I would get a case of road rage, that sudden surge of "OMG ARSEHOLE ALMOST TOOK MY LEG OFF" is replaced with an empathetic understanding, same with essentially all negative thoughts. I hope this is a permanent effect.

I didn't even get this far smoking the spice. It's not so much the ego-death, it's more so the way in which it was delivered, there is a sense of certainty that you are dealing with something rather powerful (and by that I mean infinitely so) on the other side. In the past I have rested just on the transition point of that veil but today I slowly but completely slipped into the other side. Now I understand the whole point of meditation. Silencing your mind in the right manner will give the source a chance to speak, provide and nourish you. Being in the moment is exactly what it's all about.

Peace to all :)
 
Nice to hear this, sounds like you had a really good one.

Just from the title of your name on nexus and what you've wrote for your location shows me that your in a pretty good state of space.

Peace man.
 
I'm getting tested heavily. Almost died about five times today, mainly by insane motorists while cycling. My patience is also getting tested heavily. Thanks for reading <3
 
Haha I don't know how many people notice and think about this, but when you become a more bigger greater space, you have to allow a more bigger greater space. Understand what I mean? like the + and - is greater. So with greater highs you have greater lows, because of the opposites principle to space.
The greatest space attainable is nothing. And that space (in a sense), is limitlessly + and limitlessly - (in a sense).

Another way of seeing how greatering your space via psychedllics results in, is how people feel more sensitive after, more dimension to things, they can be more happier, but get more sad, you comprehend more happiness around in the world, but comprehend more sadness in the world. Some people may feel more anxious after psychedellics, one way of looking at that is that they just released barriers to attain greater space, but now being a greater space they have more of a greater barrier to let go of to attain an even more greater space. (this anxious/fear one feels is the friction within you caused by space expanding out and in and the being not allowing it. Space has to do this, it's principle of space).

So, as you become greater, things can get more challenging, so you need to let go more, be more patient, more stronger, much more fearless. Fearless is key''


Peace
 
Embracethevoid, this entity you met - God, the Tree, whatever you want to call it - did you get the sense that it wants a relationship with us? Do you now pray to it or anything?
 
Morphane: It's really hard to tell. It was the first time this entity has communicated directly to me. I have asked it for honourable things in the past and it has always delivered. I got the sensation that it was infinitely powerful, I felt very small in its presence.

Space said:
Haha I don't know how many people notice and think about this, but when you become a more bigger greater space, you have to allow a more bigger greater space. Understand what I mean? like the + and - is greater. So with greater highs you have greater lows, because of the opposites principle to space.
The greatest space attainable is nothing. And that space (in a sense), is limitlessly + and limitlessly - (in a sense).

Another way of seeing how greatering your space via psychedllics results in, is how people feel more sensitive after, more dimension to things, they can be more happier, but get more sad, you comprehend more happiness around in the world, but comprehend more sadness in the world. Some people may feel more anxious after psychedellics, one way of looking at that is that they just released barriers to attain greater space, but now being a greater space they have more of a greater barrier to let go of to attain an even more greater space. (this anxious/fear one feels is the friction within you caused by space expanding out and in and the being not allowing it. Space has to do this, it's principle of space).

So, as you become greater, things can get more challenging, so you need to let go more, be more patient, more stronger, much more fearless. Fearless is key''


Peace
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Very insightful post, thanks for this. This also has a neurological basis; the better dopamine transmission you have in your brain, the higher your emotional range, the more potential you see in life, the more pleasure you get, etc. The converse is also true. Another interesting thing is that we have a pleasure tolerance and a pain tolerance, it's like a ceiling and a floor and we are suspended in the middle. When life is so painful that we reach the floor, we are pushed to act against this and restore equilibrium. Likewise, when life is very happy and we are higher than this ceiling, we will subconsciously sabotage ourselves (thinking "damn, I don't deserve to be this happy, I want out" ) until we are once again below the ceiling, the result being a certain homeostasis. The trick is to raise your ceiling and floor by accepting the pleasure we so desperately want, realising that if you can experience the pleasure then you deserve it.

Further reading on this (very enlightening):
 
but when you become a more bigger greater space, you have to allow a more bigger greater space.
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the space is already there but Now it is yours to fill.

So, as you become greater, things can get more challenging, so you need to let go more, be more patient, more stronger, much more fearless. Fearless is key
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fight or flight will lessen the greater you are. and i would work to replace "as you" with "to".
 
great report, thanks for sharing.
i'm curious how mimosa + rue differ from caapi + chacruna brews. if seems perhaps that caapi takes more of a guiding/teaching role than rue, and that the rue / mimosa combo may allow one to breakthrough into hyperspace more easily.
however, as you point out it seems that a quiet mind, the ability to surrender completely, is one of the keys to breaking through no matter what method one uses.
 
I've also noticed that there is a sort of happyness-ceiling. Very odd.
The first time in my life i noticed this, was when i was on acid on a beautyfull summerday, on a holiday with three very close friends.
At a certain moment i was so happy that i felt i was going to pass out, as if my mind was no longer able to hold this state of counsciousness. Everything started spinning realy fast. Then i realized; i'm just way too happy now....rather weird.
 
I haven't yet been graces by the caapi, unfortunately I'm not all that responsible with my money. In my experiences I do feel that both the rue has a conscious teaching spirit though. From what I read of aya reports, the lessons are taught in a teacherly fashion, rue+mimosa is like university, you get lectures and it's up to you to learn. I experience the presence of such a spirit; it even communicates via bouncy words that appear in the centre of my vision. They tend to be random words corresponding to my mood but on the occasion an absolute gem of a word/phrase will flash into my visual field and that word will be the key to understanding the situation around me. These words have a presence, they aren't merely words so to speak. It's like running a process, syrian_rue.exe in my brain that takes information and does crazy stuff with it like change my emotions and other things. This is not present on pure DMT.

I'll hopefully get the ability to make a more grounded comparison soon ;)

Also I recommend everyone to strive to increase their happiness ceiling. Funnily enough, I find that the spice is perhaps the best for this; in real life you have to work rather hard to become happy and then you may not even tolerate that level of happiness too long, with the spice you can just dose and surrender to the happiness, letting it take you over and dissolve you in its loving warmth. Another good method is MDMA which can also be a powerful teaching experience if you have skeletons in your closet or if like me, you were completely emotionally flat at the time. 8 hours of relentless extreme joy that you have never experienced before in life will work wonders; in my situation I rarely was happy at all prior to this.

I don't take drugs, the drugs take me <3
 
These words have a presence, they aren't merely words so to speak. It's like running a process, syrian_rue.exe
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in the past, letters of an alphabet have been named after plants, mainly trees i think. and each letter had a meaning of it's own, mirrored by the plant's characteristics/attributes/Meaning.
 
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