thEorEtical
Hypergalactic Explorer.
- Merits
- 42
Yesterday was just so immensely perfect, it was exactly what I have been anticipating in the back of my mind for about 3 weeks day in and day out. For the first time since I was sixteen years old, I took a euphoric ride on the wings of DMT. When I was younger something must have went wrong, because that experience was so uncomparable to the events that took place in the hyperspace of my subconscious yesterday.
I had acquired a few doses three weeks prior, and hadn't stopped thinking about them since. My friend, whom I will not name, invited me to his house in the rural area where I grew up but haven't visited in a few months. As we pulled up, another friend with us and a few friends in a car behind us that came along to smoke some blunts with us for one of their birthdays, the excitement was coursing through me, though i tried to maintain a calm state of mind. We got out of the car and walked through his backyard to a large pond that sits on his property. It was perfect.
We all sat down on the ground together by the pond. The spot i chose was like mother natures version of a lounge chair. A small slope of dirt that raised up about eight to ten inches and the plateau'd, with tree limbs hanging slightly above my head. It was just amazing, the pond in front me, a medium embankment with a lot of flowers and overgrown grass and weeds n such. We rolled some blunts and smoked and talked casually. I was just so ready, it was time.
I loaded a 50 mg dose of Spice for myself. As I began to draw that first pull, the feeling in my chest was just unexplainable, I held, and let it out with such a satiafactory exhale, as the visuals slowly crept in I repeated this process three more times, and by the end of the fourth pull.... Awestruck. I effortlessly dropped the lighter and smoking device as I felt a look of sheeeer astonishment slowly overtake my face. The pond looked as if a million raindrops landed at once but with no splash. I looked to the embankment and the grass and flowers began to curl and contort until the entire embankment looked like some sort of friendly cartoon alligators face, still resembling vegetation though. As I looked to the sky, and took the first breath i can remember, it was the deepest, most satisfying breath I have ever experienced, I felt as if I was breathing in existance, if that makes sense. Still glaring into the sky i exhaled and what I saw was godly to say the least. When I blew the breath out it was as if the clouds were thrown into a whirlwind by the oxygen I released from my mouth. I said one word, in the happiest tone any of my friends had ever heard "WHOA!!"
These visuals persisted and i sat quiet, and every breath I took was as big and beautiful as before, if not more so. The feelings of these breaths reminded me of something. Right now is all you have, this exact second. You can never have the past again, and the future is not even close to guaranteed. This exact moment in time is ALL YOU HAVE. So i slowly turned to a close friend and said with no thought, like my brain was speaking for me. "You have to let go of the past, and forget about the future... To be the most present." His reaction was awesome, he just says "wow man, that's heavy. That's the deepest thing ive ever heard in one sentence."
They told me I went on a philosophical rant at this point, but I can't recollect everything i said and this post is getting lengthy. I know this trip was not a full breakthrough but it didn't matter, it was the most amazing and heartwarming experience of my life to date, and I'm so thankful for it.
I hope someone finds happiness in this documentation. Thanks for taking the time to read this and i wish you all well. Peace Love and Happy Travels. thEorEtical.
I had acquired a few doses three weeks prior, and hadn't stopped thinking about them since. My friend, whom I will not name, invited me to his house in the rural area where I grew up but haven't visited in a few months. As we pulled up, another friend with us and a few friends in a car behind us that came along to smoke some blunts with us for one of their birthdays, the excitement was coursing through me, though i tried to maintain a calm state of mind. We got out of the car and walked through his backyard to a large pond that sits on his property. It was perfect.
We all sat down on the ground together by the pond. The spot i chose was like mother natures version of a lounge chair. A small slope of dirt that raised up about eight to ten inches and the plateau'd, with tree limbs hanging slightly above my head. It was just amazing, the pond in front me, a medium embankment with a lot of flowers and overgrown grass and weeds n such. We rolled some blunts and smoked and talked casually. I was just so ready, it was time.
I loaded a 50 mg dose of Spice for myself. As I began to draw that first pull, the feeling in my chest was just unexplainable, I held, and let it out with such a satiafactory exhale, as the visuals slowly crept in I repeated this process three more times, and by the end of the fourth pull.... Awestruck. I effortlessly dropped the lighter and smoking device as I felt a look of sheeeer astonishment slowly overtake my face. The pond looked as if a million raindrops landed at once but with no splash. I looked to the embankment and the grass and flowers began to curl and contort until the entire embankment looked like some sort of friendly cartoon alligators face, still resembling vegetation though. As I looked to the sky, and took the first breath i can remember, it was the deepest, most satisfying breath I have ever experienced, I felt as if I was breathing in existance, if that makes sense. Still glaring into the sky i exhaled and what I saw was godly to say the least. When I blew the breath out it was as if the clouds were thrown into a whirlwind by the oxygen I released from my mouth. I said one word, in the happiest tone any of my friends had ever heard "WHOA!!"
These visuals persisted and i sat quiet, and every breath I took was as big and beautiful as before, if not more so. The feelings of these breaths reminded me of something. Right now is all you have, this exact second. You can never have the past again, and the future is not even close to guaranteed. This exact moment in time is ALL YOU HAVE. So i slowly turned to a close friend and said with no thought, like my brain was speaking for me. "You have to let go of the past, and forget about the future... To be the most present." His reaction was awesome, he just says "wow man, that's heavy. That's the deepest thing ive ever heard in one sentence."
They told me I went on a philosophical rant at this point, but I can't recollect everything i said and this post is getting lengthy. I know this trip was not a full breakthrough but it didn't matter, it was the most amazing and heartwarming experience of my life to date, and I'm so thankful for it.
I hope someone finds happiness in this documentation. Thanks for taking the time to read this and i wish you all well. Peace Love and Happy Travels. thEorEtical.
I've heard countless variations of "living in the moment" thrown around, as I'm sure we all have, but the way you worded this really caught my attention, and I think this is something I'll enjoy pondering a bit.
