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Clarity of mind-month's later

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ruready

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I have a question or should I say questions for all. It has been at least 3 months since I last smoked the spice and I am just now finding myself feeling grounded to earth. The whole experience was ever so beautiful and enlightning, I have to say I am changed for ever. Great right?

I find that while I still have some,I am thinking about it on a daily basis. It is a little mind numbing in a way, constantly having it creep back in to fill my thoughts. Is this normal? Does everyone who uses this tool find themselves thinking about the voyage all the time? Don't get me wrong, when the single most enlightening thing in your life (other than births of my kids) changes me to be a better human being, I am grateful. I just wish I didn't have it in there like a wedge in my brain is all. With more distance will the thoughts slowly disappear. I will do it again, of that I have no doubt.

So I guess what I am asking is, Is there anyone out there who hasn't used it in a good long time, can you please let me know what your thoughts are like. Are they still centered on the spice or can life creep back in and take hold again.
 
Since I started, I've never taken any long breaks ... week or two at most, and that was usually because circumstance just didn't allow. So I understand what you mean about it getting in your head. Whenever I find I have a gap in my life, it's the first thing I want to do. I took the blue pill.

However, there are many times between when I just don't feel it's right to go in, or I'm just focused on this reality. I've taken the view, however, that if it is still calling me, then there is still work to be done.

That's probably not what you wanted to hear ...
 
It's a big thing. It will, and does, occupy your mind and rightly so. But, you've acknowledged that it was a monumental experience, so it shouldn't be a surprise that you still feel the reverberations mentally. Take comfort knowing that you understand why you feel the way you do. Many others might not connect those dots and just feel 'messed up' without knowing why. You're obviously integrating the experience in your own thoughtful way. With time, all things pass. We have an amazing capacity to learn and adapt. This is something that will be with you forever, you'll just be more accustomed to it eventually and forget it's there (like first riding a bike). In the future you'll look back and long for that feeling of intense connection to that experience so enjoy this time while it lasts. While familiarity does nothing to lessen the wonder and beauty, it does reduce that outright clarity of amazement towards how different everything now is.

Hope that made some sense. Cool shit though no? haha :D
 
good answer, freethinker! exactly what I would have said.

@ruready: yes, spice creeps back into your thoughts from time to time, for swim it's various elements of the trip, maybe you catch some of the visuals again or you smell that smell again. but after a while it dissipates, you move on.

was that what you were getting?

if you're needing to speed up the integration process, meditation works great.
 
Every drug i have every done has had a profound effect on my life, good or bad, ugly or beautiful. I have a knowledge of the world that not everybody has. I can see things in a different perspective. LSD has caused me to focus more on little things, I notice subtle details that I never payed attention to before. The spice has effected the way i go about major life decisions. These are just small examples.

I do not let these substances run my life, but i take what i have learned from so many amazing experiences, and even a few bad ones, and i use that information to better my life.

Maybe not for everybody, but that's what its all about for me.
 
all very good advice from everyone. much appreciated. My experience with lsd was never anything more than having a good time and laughing my ass off until it was done. The spice for me just wasn't like that. It was deeply spiritual and I felt garnered that kind of respect. I am going to ride the giraffe (my long necked smoking aid)I think this weekend. Once again thanks all for the kind words.

Always respect what you can never fully understand, I always say.
 
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