Clarity
Rising Star
OK, so here goes......
I am in the very early stages of psychedelic experience and still very apprehensive about breaking through with DMT. To briefly outline my experiences with substances as a whole; I have been a daily weed smoker for around 12 years now but went cold turkey about two months ago, partly because I wanted to and partly because I moved to a different country and didn't know where to get it! As a teenager I found and fell in love with electronic music and began experimenting with cocaine, MDMA and ecstasy when I was out raving every weekend. Although I had friends who liked to take mushrooms and acid I never wanted to. In my mind I either wanted drugs to keep me awake all night or chill me out so I could go to sleep, I had no interest in (to quote myself) 'seeing things that weren't there.'
Around 15 months ago I left home to embark on a backpacking trip through Latin America and whilst in Guatemala, desperately trying to learn Spanish, I met the man who would change my life forever, in more ways than I would or could have imagined possible!
It was the first time I had ever met anyone with a deep knowledge and experience of psychedelics and was able to converse freely and ask questions about them.
The closer we traveled to Peru, he starting telling me more and more about Ayahuasca and revealed that his main purpose for travelling to South America was to work with it in a traditional setting.
At the centre we traveled to, after hearing everyone else at breakfast discuss the previous nights ceremonies and their experiences every morning, my curiosity was ignited and began to far surpass my fear. I was really apprehensive at first but eventually participated in three ceremonies.
I have broken through on another occasion, at the end of a party last summer, through smoking changa and it was incredible and fun.
I nearly broke through with changa again about two weeks ago, but couldn't let myself let go. I kept focusing on the real world and desperately clinging on, too scared to leave my body and the experience was nowhere near complete.
So the stage I'm at now is this: I cannot believe what I've seen!! And I cannot believe the power of my mind, and I'm super super curious to keep exploring hyperspace. BUT, when it comes to the crunch I have recently found it really difficult to let myself go all the way.
I was attracted to the nexus and wanted to join because I understand, through my boyfriend (Olympus Mon) and friends (Icehouse and Idtrvlr), that there is a huge wealth of experience and knowledge here. I think my fear is something that only I can overcome, in time, but even in the mean time I'm just keen to try and learn about entheogens and explore this world more.
Anyway, I think this has got really long now, but if you made it this far, thanks for reading!
I am in the very early stages of psychedelic experience and still very apprehensive about breaking through with DMT. To briefly outline my experiences with substances as a whole; I have been a daily weed smoker for around 12 years now but went cold turkey about two months ago, partly because I wanted to and partly because I moved to a different country and didn't know where to get it! As a teenager I found and fell in love with electronic music and began experimenting with cocaine, MDMA and ecstasy when I was out raving every weekend. Although I had friends who liked to take mushrooms and acid I never wanted to. In my mind I either wanted drugs to keep me awake all night or chill me out so I could go to sleep, I had no interest in (to quote myself) 'seeing things that weren't there.'
Around 15 months ago I left home to embark on a backpacking trip through Latin America and whilst in Guatemala, desperately trying to learn Spanish, I met the man who would change my life forever, in more ways than I would or could have imagined possible!
It was the first time I had ever met anyone with a deep knowledge and experience of psychedelics and was able to converse freely and ask questions about them.
The closer we traveled to Peru, he starting telling me more and more about Ayahuasca and revealed that his main purpose for travelling to South America was to work with it in a traditional setting.
At the centre we traveled to, after hearing everyone else at breakfast discuss the previous nights ceremonies and their experiences every morning, my curiosity was ignited and began to far surpass my fear. I was really apprehensive at first but eventually participated in three ceremonies.
I have broken through on another occasion, at the end of a party last summer, through smoking changa and it was incredible and fun.
I nearly broke through with changa again about two weeks ago, but couldn't let myself let go. I kept focusing on the real world and desperately clinging on, too scared to leave my body and the experience was nowhere near complete.
So the stage I'm at now is this: I cannot believe what I've seen!! And I cannot believe the power of my mind, and I'm super super curious to keep exploring hyperspace. BUT, when it comes to the crunch I have recently found it really difficult to let myself go all the way.
I was attracted to the nexus and wanted to join because I understand, through my boyfriend (Olympus Mon) and friends (Icehouse and Idtrvlr), that there is a huge wealth of experience and knowledge here. I think my fear is something that only I can overcome, in time, but even in the mean time I'm just keen to try and learn about entheogens and explore this world more.
Anyway, I think this has got really long now, but if you made it this far, thanks for reading!
