Dude, so very sorry to hear about your troubles. PLEASE, get some proffesional help as dealing with it on your own is self destruction. There is no shame in seeking help, you are doin it by posting here except we are not trained preffesionals and can't perscribe what may help you resolve these issues. I went to a therapist and doctor for a painkiller addiction (seven years of spiraling hell) and if it wasn't for the medical help I would certainly be dead now. I also went to couples counceling and for a dude, that's a tough one to swallow, but once I got passed the stigma... it was VERY beneficial and am a much better man for it. I can honestly attribute my LIFE and happiness for reaching out and getting help. You and those who love you deserve the opportunity. Get help, the Nexus is a reat sounding board, but by no means a substitue.

Get help, no shame brother. Sucks to live like that and it can be better!

Keep us posted and again, sorry to hear and truly wish you all the best!

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