Not as easily said then done... not sure if you have ever been in a place where something had a hold over you like that. The whole problem IS your mind isn't in a place where it can set itself right. It's like asking a fish not to drink water. Yes, discipline and will power come into play, but it's hard enough to put it into action even after a full detox. Without support, chances are very very slim that it can be done by sheer will, not saying it doesn't happen, but in the game of odds, I wouldn't bet on it.

Jason, do reach out and make a plan. Sleep, good diet and talking things out is a great start. The booze will only sink you deeper, and you know that. Like I said, I went down a very destructive path with opiates and if it wasn't for the love of my wife to stick by me and me getting professional help and it was not easy, it SUCKED BALLS! But, so did living a completely empty and hopeless life. I now am almost four years clean from that crap...(I now just drink socially, smoke a bowl here and there and a blast off once in a while... BALANCE)  I squared myself away WITH help and now have a woderful daughter and fulfilling life.. so can you, just not overnight.

Be well my friend!