been a little while since my last experience post....but not for a lack of experience 
so- my daily visits to "church" have been, as always, beautiful and educational. after almost a year of using the spirit molecule pretty much every day i have developed a few interesting tendencies....
1. my trepidation is pretty much non-existent. the "nervousness" of starting school is gone and now i show up with a hungry mind, my books in hand and an apple for the teacher.
2. i am learning that gratitude, like any other positive energy, is limitless and ever-expanding. i've long dispatched with the thought that i am "as grateful as a person could possibly be". trust me- there is always more.
so- my blessed, righteous life for which i am forever growing in gratitude has lead me to this particular point in the never-ending story of "existence". i live as true to my heart as i can and good things and righteous aspects of the great oneness are introduced at their perfect moment. slowly but ever so surely, a "family" is coming together like individual atoms taking form. the form of god.
the "magnet" at the center of this cohesive, collective union?....DMT.
i sit in my room with two brothers new to the magic. both have just had gentle, low-level breakthroughs and are glowing with the wonderment of having just been shown exactly how limited their scope has been up to this point. i am honored to help these two seekers experience what i know to be sacred. i light my torch and walk into the cave...
my hit is huge...brand new batch of changa with extra magic sprinkled on top....a cupcake made out of caapi, cannibis, peppermint and lavender...with hyperspace sprinkles...delicious!
it feels as though i am moving through the hull of a craft. passing through the lower levels of a craft...machinery with impossibly precise perfection until i am into the "body" of it where they/consciousness are felt the strongest. as if a ship were "created" by pure conscious thought. every atom assembled and held in place by a great collective consciousness so that, even the "ship" was as much "them" as "they" would be once you found "them".....but for some reason, my reasoning mind needs to put it together in a way that is familiar- ie: here is the ship and INSIDE the ship are the aliens...i see how limited my thinking is in a flash and with this understanding...
i am home in hyperspace again ...
something different this time...the carrier wave has never been this strong before. it is language, no question....but so much more information is being communicated compared to our little bursts of crudely-shaped air that we use here...it is as if all five senses are transmitted through it concurrently. i listen/see/smell/touch/taste to my friends....
i am as deep as i would be if i were to have an ego-death journey now. except...i have my ego intact. long gone is my body and the "density" as i have come to call that world...but i have awareness and an observative ability that i can only think has come from being here so many times....this is not something to freak out about, but it is not a "good" thing....and i know this because...
my friend is made of light. he is a clown, then a monkey, then the walls of a room, then a dragon-tailed angel hanging from a chandelier in the center of a ceiling that is rotating all around "me". his consciousness is as limitless as the forms that atoms can take. and all the while he is talking to me...with love...
"you are so eager to make sense....to understand on the small scale that you are limited to..." "why don't you BE this place like me?? as long as you are so compelled to bring yourSELF here, i will take you as far as you could ever dream of going..but i promise you will not fully enjoy it..."
we go everywhere now. jungles, castles, temples, rooms...machinery, hives, caves and conscious-scapes that defy my limited vocabulary.
and all the while i am carrying my SELF like an uncomfortably heavy back-pack. it is SUCH a tedious burden...i have no control over it's annoying NEED to analyze, think and discern "differences". this is the mind i live with here in the density. this is the part of "me" that i have longed to be able to take off. i have never been so acutely aware of HOW MUCH OF A HINDERENCE IT IS!
i am gone forever before my guide tells me that it is time to go back. for a moment, i almost experience the "i can't remember anything" that i've read in other reports....but slowly (thank you cannibis), i recall . the gratitude for such a lesson is as infinite as i understand infinite to be at this point in my growth. i am in my body now and my eyes are stil closed. the light coming from the window to my right is the "tractor beam, hyperspace machine escalator" my friend slowly exits through. my hands are in the prayer pose...blue lotus in offering....i am moved. deeply.
"7 minutes", say my fellow travelers when asked how long i was gone. 7 years would have been more appropriate to my mind.....that was a deep one....deeper than any i have ever gone without dying. this was a big lesson....i will not forget it. ever.
with deep love and strength , i encourage my two brothers to have a second, deeper journey....which they do....both of which are the deepest either have gone. be on the lookout for reports from impossiblemachine and our newest member: neuronaut.
NOTE: when a trusted, fellow seeker presents him/herself to me expressing interest in working with the sacrament, my only other requirements for journeying with me have been the following: join the nexus, post about your experience(s) for the growth and benefit of the community. i would encourage all of us to try and make this "pact" with anyone we introduce to the spice. the growth and evolution of one is the growth and evolution of all. our beloved nexus is made that much richer when we do this...
many thanks for allowing me to download and share this experience guys...i hope with all my cells that it is of some help/use to any of my family here on the nexus.
MUCH LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!
so- my daily visits to "church" have been, as always, beautiful and educational. after almost a year of using the spirit molecule pretty much every day i have developed a few interesting tendencies....
1. my trepidation is pretty much non-existent. the "nervousness" of starting school is gone and now i show up with a hungry mind, my books in hand and an apple for the teacher.
2. i am learning that gratitude, like any other positive energy, is limitless and ever-expanding. i've long dispatched with the thought that i am "as grateful as a person could possibly be". trust me- there is always more.
so- my blessed, righteous life for which i am forever growing in gratitude has lead me to this particular point in the never-ending story of "existence". i live as true to my heart as i can and good things and righteous aspects of the great oneness are introduced at their perfect moment. slowly but ever so surely, a "family" is coming together like individual atoms taking form. the form of god.
the "magnet" at the center of this cohesive, collective union?....DMT.
i sit in my room with two brothers new to the magic. both have just had gentle, low-level breakthroughs and are glowing with the wonderment of having just been shown exactly how limited their scope has been up to this point. i am honored to help these two seekers experience what i know to be sacred. i light my torch and walk into the cave...
my hit is huge...brand new batch of changa with extra magic sprinkled on top....a cupcake made out of caapi, cannibis, peppermint and lavender...with hyperspace sprinkles...delicious!
it feels as though i am moving through the hull of a craft. passing through the lower levels of a craft...machinery with impossibly precise perfection until i am into the "body" of it where they/consciousness are felt the strongest. as if a ship were "created" by pure conscious thought. every atom assembled and held in place by a great collective consciousness so that, even the "ship" was as much "them" as "they" would be once you found "them".....but for some reason, my reasoning mind needs to put it together in a way that is familiar- ie: here is the ship and INSIDE the ship are the aliens...i see how limited my thinking is in a flash and with this understanding...
i am home in hyperspace again ...
something different this time...the carrier wave has never been this strong before. it is language, no question....but so much more information is being communicated compared to our little bursts of crudely-shaped air that we use here...it is as if all five senses are transmitted through it concurrently. i listen/see/smell/touch/taste to my friends....
i am as deep as i would be if i were to have an ego-death journey now. except...i have my ego intact. long gone is my body and the "density" as i have come to call that world...but i have awareness and an observative ability that i can only think has come from being here so many times....this is not something to freak out about, but it is not a "good" thing....and i know this because...
my friend is made of light. he is a clown, then a monkey, then the walls of a room, then a dragon-tailed angel hanging from a chandelier in the center of a ceiling that is rotating all around "me". his consciousness is as limitless as the forms that atoms can take. and all the while he is talking to me...with love...
"you are so eager to make sense....to understand on the small scale that you are limited to..." "why don't you BE this place like me?? as long as you are so compelled to bring yourSELF here, i will take you as far as you could ever dream of going..but i promise you will not fully enjoy it..."
we go everywhere now. jungles, castles, temples, rooms...machinery, hives, caves and conscious-scapes that defy my limited vocabulary.
and all the while i am carrying my SELF like an uncomfortably heavy back-pack. it is SUCH a tedious burden...i have no control over it's annoying NEED to analyze, think and discern "differences". this is the mind i live with here in the density. this is the part of "me" that i have longed to be able to take off. i have never been so acutely aware of HOW MUCH OF A HINDERENCE IT IS!
i am gone forever before my guide tells me that it is time to go back. for a moment, i almost experience the "i can't remember anything" that i've read in other reports....but slowly (thank you cannibis), i recall . the gratitude for such a lesson is as infinite as i understand infinite to be at this point in my growth. i am in my body now and my eyes are stil closed. the light coming from the window to my right is the "tractor beam, hyperspace machine escalator" my friend slowly exits through. my hands are in the prayer pose...blue lotus in offering....i am moved. deeply.
"7 minutes", say my fellow travelers when asked how long i was gone. 7 years would have been more appropriate to my mind.....that was a deep one....deeper than any i have ever gone without dying. this was a big lesson....i will not forget it. ever.
with deep love and strength , i encourage my two brothers to have a second, deeper journey....which they do....both of which are the deepest either have gone. be on the lookout for reports from impossiblemachine and our newest member: neuronaut.
NOTE: when a trusted, fellow seeker presents him/herself to me expressing interest in working with the sacrament, my only other requirements for journeying with me have been the following: join the nexus, post about your experience(s) for the growth and benefit of the community. i would encourage all of us to try and make this "pact" with anyone we introduce to the spice. the growth and evolution of one is the growth and evolution of all. our beloved nexus is made that much richer when we do this...
many thanks for allowing me to download and share this experience guys...i hope with all my cells that it is of some help/use to any of my family here on the nexus.
MUCH LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!
