(Edited with extended details about extractions and a clearer mind; pictures added below)
Have you ever felt as if the universe has covered one of your eyes so that you perpetually hit your head against a wall? Just when you think you've understood the landscape, your depth perception betrays you and ... WHACK. The pain makes you laugh as cry, briefly displacing your anger, until you run headlong again into some obstacle, repeating a form of cosmic slapstick.
To me, the cosmic joke about psychedelics is that they are simultaneously a deeply social and extremely individualist pursuit. The solitary part is immediately apparent; the experience resides deep within and no one else can truly know what you've experienced. What you gain from the experience is private and some say tailored to your being.
The social aspect is the maddening one for me. I suppose that in the olden days (whatever that means), you would be introduced to the drug by someone. A friend, a lover, a teacher - you'd probably be an apprentice to them in the experience. Drugs are dangerous, the chemistry, the source material and now the legal status all need adroit navigation.
To pine about will do me no good; I have you, fellow traveler. And the cold internet, awash with truths and lies mingled tightly together.
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In the past I've tried (and failed for perfectly good reasons) two ayahusca brews: likely didn't have enough ACRB in my boils to work. I definitely felt the syrian rue tea and my body vibrated a bit through the nausea, but no visuals or trip to speak of. I decided I should try extracting to know what I was dealing with.
So I tried oral dmt pharmahuasca, which made me feel nothing. I used the same batch of ACRB with the Q21Q21 tek. Being new to the chem lab, I spilled some here and there, but felt I followed the tek accurately. The jimjam looked like pictures on the internet I'd seen, so when I did 4.5 g of syrian rue + 100 mg of jimjam, I was shocked that it did absolutely nothing. I parachuted the rue this time, 30-40 minutes before the spice. No body load from the rue this time so maybe I'd need to make a tea.
I return to the forums and got some good advice: I'd try smoking dmt. Only had a little acetate left, and not knowing any better (and hearing one report that it could work) I tried smoking it with "the machine" (nothing happened).
Now out of my first buy of ACRB, I get a second batch. I do the BLAB tek this time, going to dmt acetate from the vinegar salting (looks like the jimjam from the above attempt) and then based it as suggested into freebase. I then wash/evap with acetone and get a yellow/red goo, lighter than the previous acetate.
With the freebase, I tried smoking 22 mg. This time I've figured out the convection aspect of smoking much better. I get a huge hit of white smoke that burns my throat and surprises me, I couldn't hold it in for more than a second or two before coughing like mad. I gag and wheeze; since I've never smoked prior to my foray into DMT, this was pretty harsh. Other than that, no body feeling so I suppose I didn't absorb enough. Try again ten minutes with a 35 mg dose after adding a 8 oz "holding tank" to the end of my machine to cool down the smoke. Still harsh, but I take in several long tokes. Nothing.
Not to be defeated, I try again a week later, this time with 15-20 mg on the plug. I am careful about the flame and smoking technique - slow methodical breaths, very long holds. Again, no feeling whatsoever.
Now I'm at a strange crossroads. Do I try to find another ACRB source and check to see if that was the problem? Or do I need to try to extract pure white dmt? Was I just not abosrbing enough (I am a noob smoker, right)?
Or do I try to administer it differently? And yes, I'm ready to try an anal dose if that's what it will take - which is sort of an analog of what the universe may be doing to me anyway, so why not submit?
Hugs and cosmic kisses,
FF
Have you ever felt as if the universe has covered one of your eyes so that you perpetually hit your head against a wall? Just when you think you've understood the landscape, your depth perception betrays you and ... WHACK. The pain makes you laugh as cry, briefly displacing your anger, until you run headlong again into some obstacle, repeating a form of cosmic slapstick.
To me, the cosmic joke about psychedelics is that they are simultaneously a deeply social and extremely individualist pursuit. The solitary part is immediately apparent; the experience resides deep within and no one else can truly know what you've experienced. What you gain from the experience is private and some say tailored to your being.
The social aspect is the maddening one for me. I suppose that in the olden days (whatever that means), you would be introduced to the drug by someone. A friend, a lover, a teacher - you'd probably be an apprentice to them in the experience. Drugs are dangerous, the chemistry, the source material and now the legal status all need adroit navigation.
To pine about will do me no good; I have you, fellow traveler. And the cold internet, awash with truths and lies mingled tightly together.
*********
In the past I've tried (and failed for perfectly good reasons) two ayahusca brews: likely didn't have enough ACRB in my boils to work. I definitely felt the syrian rue tea and my body vibrated a bit through the nausea, but no visuals or trip to speak of. I decided I should try extracting to know what I was dealing with.
So I tried oral dmt pharmahuasca, which made me feel nothing. I used the same batch of ACRB with the Q21Q21 tek. Being new to the chem lab, I spilled some here and there, but felt I followed the tek accurately. The jimjam looked like pictures on the internet I'd seen, so when I did 4.5 g of syrian rue + 100 mg of jimjam, I was shocked that it did absolutely nothing. I parachuted the rue this time, 30-40 minutes before the spice. No body load from the rue this time so maybe I'd need to make a tea.
I return to the forums and got some good advice: I'd try smoking dmt. Only had a little acetate left, and not knowing any better (and hearing one report that it could work) I tried smoking it with "the machine" (nothing happened).
Now out of my first buy of ACRB, I get a second batch. I do the BLAB tek this time, going to dmt acetate from the vinegar salting (looks like the jimjam from the above attempt) and then based it as suggested into freebase. I then wash/evap with acetone and get a yellow/red goo, lighter than the previous acetate.
With the freebase, I tried smoking 22 mg. This time I've figured out the convection aspect of smoking much better. I get a huge hit of white smoke that burns my throat and surprises me, I couldn't hold it in for more than a second or two before coughing like mad. I gag and wheeze; since I've never smoked prior to my foray into DMT, this was pretty harsh. Other than that, no body feeling so I suppose I didn't absorb enough. Try again ten minutes with a 35 mg dose after adding a 8 oz "holding tank" to the end of my machine to cool down the smoke. Still harsh, but I take in several long tokes. Nothing.
Not to be defeated, I try again a week later, this time with 15-20 mg on the plug. I am careful about the flame and smoking technique - slow methodical breaths, very long holds. Again, no feeling whatsoever.
Now I'm at a strange crossroads. Do I try to find another ACRB source and check to see if that was the problem? Or do I need to try to extract pure white dmt? Was I just not abosrbing enough (I am a noob smoker, right)?
Or do I try to administer it differently? And yes, I'm ready to try an anal dose if that's what it will take - which is sort of an analog of what the universe may be doing to me anyway, so why not submit?
Hugs and cosmic kisses,
FF
