My last DMT trip was similar to this. The onset had lots of fractals and geometric patterns. On "breaking through", I was not allowed into the space that I usually go. I was able to catch a glimpse of it when a greyish wall or curtain was dropped in front of me. all the fractals and patterns were gone and I was pressed up against the wall. It was like a gravitational force was trying to push me into hyperspace but I was stopped by the wall. The wall was not entirely opaque and I could see shadows cast on it from the other side which I assume were the "entities".

The normal psychic communication felt like it was intentionally muted. The entities were in motion following each other from right to left on the other side of the wall and it felt like they were pouring energy into the wall/veil to keep it solid enough to keep me from passing. I felt excommunicated in some way, but every once in a while one of the entities passing by would convey something to me. Putting all the conveyances together as one thought, it was something like, "You are not locked out forever, but you need to take a break."

I would take this as knowledge from the other side, but my partner had been telling me to slow down. My doctor told me to discontinue my psychedelics use until my ulcers have healed. I knew that I needed to take a break but just didn't want to let it go. A couple weeks later, I had some depression hit quite hard and for the first time in my life decided to go see a therapist. It turns out that I have pretty bad anxiety too which I had no idea of, but it totally makes sense. I am on Wellbutrin now and finally feel like my depression and anxiety are improving.

I know that it's going to be many months out, but I can hardly wait for the day that I can confidently take DMT or pharmahuasca and not be haunted by shadows. My recent Ayahuasca and pharmahuasca trips have been pretty dark as well.