I see what you mean now.

It really just depends on how you interpret what you went through. The last time I smoked DMT I had a very harrowing experience, it literally scared me away from it for some time, its a little over a year now and I'm just now starting to get ready to ease myself back into it. But I learned something valuable that night, and in no way do I regret what happened. It also taught me how much respect this substance deserves, and how much care needs to be taken when diving into its waters.

I'm almost in the same position (thought wise) when it comes to Aya, I'm actually scared of the intensity that it may have. But when I think back to other intense experiences I've had, such as the shrooms+Syrian Rue, I realize there is nothing to fear, and the bliss that accompanies the trip alone may make it worth it. I will be trying Aya soon, thanks to all the great information the nexus has taught me about it.