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[godling in search]

..... i can feel or see or understand or all of those AT ONCE that i have so much more to learn...

 

[godling in search]

anyone else.. actually feel that kinda thing... like not necessarily knowing that you should learn more... but almost like your pressing against this wall that you've suddenly become aware of.. it's.. weird,,, like it's not like i'm pressing to the side of me but above me,, like the ceiling ... ..... i guess i'm talking about insight... i'm not sure,,, cause it's other stuff too

i mean, i always strive for understanding,,,,, but it's soooo weird,,, i've never felt this wall... or maybe i'm not pressing against it, but it's pressing against me, and that's why i've suddenly become aware of it,,, that would make sense... especially because i've always pressed... very interesting... this is so wild

like on recent trips, especially this past one... the spirit is getting so strong, that the emotions press me so hard that i feel as if i'm about to merge.... it's kinda freaky... kinda getting the thought that it may have something to do with my other half.....



anyone who would like to chat about this, you know, maybe shed some light

 

[godling in search]

okay maybe it's my other half... i forgot something... in a journey recently i was shown why i'm being shown soooooo much of her... because the love is too big for us to bare... like literally... so we have to be slowly built up to it... .... i truly can't imagine what is about to happen... but it's the biggest thing yet in my life... it's almost like my entire world is going to blip into another dimension...like quite literally... .......

sorry if i'm wordy, just lettin meh thoughts out

 

[KwisatzHaderach]

Whatup godling in search. The name and the signature really bring it together

just trolling around and stumbled upon this. Enough said, I am intrigued.

..... i can feel or see or understand or all of those AT ONCE that i have so much more to learn...

This is a very self-aware feeling. As you say insight. I get this feeling at points in my life when I really feel like I've centered myself around me. As in resting my heart in my true heart's home. Yet, I still feel like I have so much growing to do. So much to experience. My soul sometimes wants to burst out of body through the ceiling.

And there is so much unknown out there, I am unsure of my footing. And then this pressing sensation, I too have felt it. But to my best description, it reminds me of quicksand. The more you fight it, the tougher it becomes. But yet, if I relax and accept this fear, this strange apprehension then the flip to the other side becomes easier. Then I realize that two sides must exist. They are equal, yet opposite. A paradox.

Your other half? I would like to know more. You're other half in hyperspace? dreamspace? This love that is being built up sounds tremendous. And if this feeling is like that of bowstring pulled back, ready to fire. Then I wish you to go for it with gusto and bravery into the unknown. There is no fear. Now is the time. Nothing will be lost only transmuted.

thankyou

 

[godling in search]

thank you... you've just filled in a lot of cracks... many thanks... be blessed



my other half... the other piece of myself to become a whole one... the only way to become one... ....like a twin flame with purpose... similar to romeo and juliet but taken further to eve pulled from adam... she was made from him but his was removed put into her.. they are each other's crutch,,,when together may stand as one being,,,reaching so much further,,,,so much more abundance for others and selves... .........make sense?

 

[KwisatzHaderach]

Glad all is well and good to hear from you.

my other half... the other piece of myself to become a whole one... the only way to become one... ....like a twin flame with purpose... similar to romeo and juliet but taken further to eve pulled from adam... she was made from him but his was removed put into her.. they are each other's crutch,,,when together may stand as one being,,,reaching so much further,,,,so much more abundance for others and selves... .........make sense?

Oh it makes so much sense! I read this and though "Love!"

Godling, good luck in your search. I know that you will find your hearts home. Perhaps it has been overlooked in a very obvious place?

-much love