I made my third attempt and with some help from some guys in the chat, I meditated before more, and focused on the smoking/vaporizing of the spice firstly to make sure I get the entire dose. Props to DiMiTree. Thanks.
Anyway,
I think I managed to get it all in 5 hits. I focused on smoking it to not get distracted. I remember seeing my hand holding the VG and it shaking and this whole feeling over my body was incredible. the "pre-flight" was incredible. Whole body was becoming numb, but at the same time, it felt like all my senses were firing. Head to toe. Amazing. I remember thinking it was an amazing feeling, slightly scary, but no going back, so I embraced it. I finally laid back and closed my eyes. I started to see geometric pattern and I had this feeling/sense that this baboon was behind it. I don't know why I think that, but I do. I can't begin to describe the patters, the colors were vidid and constantly changeing. Similar to plaid....Then it all faded out and it was like I was floating in outer space, I could see my body, but I was still in it. There was this white/purple planet in front of me that was really bright. Then, from the left, this floating, ghost-like/woman-like glowing, flowing sheet(s) of light as if it was flowing in the wind or the being was controlling the fluttering as a form of movement. It gave a feeling that everything would be ok. I watched this being get closer and closer, it felt like it was gigantic almost like a spaceship or something above...it intentionally touched my entire body with the edges of the rippling sheets and it gave me this tingling feeling. Euphoric. It made me feel ok and that it was ok what was happening to me. She then faded away after contacting my body all over. I specifically remember seeing my arm being touched. My arm(and body) just looked solid black and seeing the rippling sheets of light just skim on my arm. The sensation was incredible. It was extremely relaxing.
It all kind of faded out and I knew I could sit up. I felt very happy and up. Body still very tingly and sensitive. I almost felt tears come to my eyes I was so happy. This was an internal happiness. It felt like the being had blessed me or something. That's the best way I could describe it. I had this overall feeling of "oh my god, what was that?" and excitement of what happened. It has since faded and now I can reflect. I'm still coming out of it and I hope the above makes sense.
I look forward to trying it again.
Thanks for reading.
Anyway,
I think I managed to get it all in 5 hits. I focused on smoking it to not get distracted. I remember seeing my hand holding the VG and it shaking and this whole feeling over my body was incredible. the "pre-flight" was incredible. Whole body was becoming numb, but at the same time, it felt like all my senses were firing. Head to toe. Amazing. I remember thinking it was an amazing feeling, slightly scary, but no going back, so I embraced it. I finally laid back and closed my eyes. I started to see geometric pattern and I had this feeling/sense that this baboon was behind it. I don't know why I think that, but I do. I can't begin to describe the patters, the colors were vidid and constantly changeing. Similar to plaid....Then it all faded out and it was like I was floating in outer space, I could see my body, but I was still in it. There was this white/purple planet in front of me that was really bright. Then, from the left, this floating, ghost-like/woman-like glowing, flowing sheet(s) of light as if it was flowing in the wind or the being was controlling the fluttering as a form of movement. It gave a feeling that everything would be ok. I watched this being get closer and closer, it felt like it was gigantic almost like a spaceship or something above...it intentionally touched my entire body with the edges of the rippling sheets and it gave me this tingling feeling. Euphoric. It made me feel ok and that it was ok what was happening to me. She then faded away after contacting my body all over. I specifically remember seeing my arm being touched. My arm(and body) just looked solid black and seeing the rippling sheets of light just skim on my arm. The sensation was incredible. It was extremely relaxing.
It all kind of faded out and I knew I could sit up. I felt very happy and up. Body still very tingly and sensitive. I almost felt tears come to my eyes I was so happy. This was an internal happiness. It felt like the being had blessed me or something. That's the best way I could describe it. I had this overall feeling of "oh my god, what was that?" and excitement of what happened. It has since faded and now I can reflect. I'm still coming out of it and I hope the above makes sense.
I look forward to trying it again.
Thanks for reading.
