Welcome Lunaria! That took a lot of guts to make an introduction like that.

I don't know you but I'm not so sure you should apply a self-diagnosis like schizophrenia so easily.  It sounds to me like you're just fine but are looking for ways to feel more comfortable with yourself just like everyone else and have had success integrating parts of your personality that may not be socially acceptable yet.  You shouldn't have to feel guilty about anything.

Psychedelics can be wonderful medicine to connect to a deeper part of yourself which helps to integrate any conflict happening on the personality level.  I know it has done wonders in my own personal growth.