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As I'm sure you know, sometimes you have to go through hell to get to heaven. I would recommend staying away from prescription Anti-depressants unless that's your only option. Thankfully, there are other options. Look into holistic health such as nutrition therapy, meditation, Yoga/Tai Chi/Chi Gong, homeopathic medicine, Sensory deprivation in a Floatation Tank, acupuncture, and especially psychedelics.

Have you considered Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation? It appears effective and much safer than ECT.

I wish you the best and hope you find something that works for you.

Oh, and Welcome to the Nexus. We are here for you. :d