That is an intense story, about you seeing yourself. Maybe, if you where not supposed to see yourself, you are also not realy supposed to know the reason why you're there.

And it could be anything. We could speculate endlessly. Do you trust yourself to have a good reason to go "back or forwards" ?

If so, then you probably have no real reason to worry about it. It is probably best to simply allow "yourself" to do what you came for.

But that's just what i think i would do.