I think its normal to want to believe in something. Personally I've formed a few beliefs since I started using dmt. I think the main thing that you're going to get out of it is that there actually is more to all of this then we are led to believe  but as for specifics.... well thats where it gets tricky because dmt has a way breaking down previous ideas or conclusions you might have come to, at least it does for me. Church is a waste of time imo and I think your on the right path by coming here. With dmt you will find more questions than answers I think  and thats where true wisdom begins. welcome to the nexus.